He
should not have these feelings. No this had nothing to do with the
fact that he worked for the Pope. He wasn't even Christian. It was
that he didn't think anyone could feel this way.
He wanted to rip
his skin off and give it to the other boy, every time he was near
him. Being near him cause his heart to soar and his stomach to float.
Just the thought of the other boy made him go insane.
But he could not have that boy, not because they where of the same gender, not because he was older or any of that stuff. It wasn't even do to the fact that they boy was taken. I he had really wanted to he could have easily taken him away from his current boyfriend. It was the fact that soon, he would no longer be Lavi. Just like he had gone from being Deke to being Lavi he would soon be someone new. There was no way he would put him through this.
He meant the world to Lavi. Bookman would soon make him move on. Make him continue to record the war and all that it involved. They weren't exorcists, they where here to record the war, being an exorcist was just something that came with the job. Except he had screwed up, he had formed the bonds he wasn't supposed to and he would not let him suffer for it.
Lavi controlled himself around the other boy. It may not have seemed like it to many others, but there where far worse things that he could do to the boy.
He shouldn't have these feelings. Especially not for Allen, not when he was with Yuu, not when he would soon be another person. He wouldn't do this to him. Not to anyone.