Chapter 1

Wally West had a problem. That problem was, that he had had a crush on his two best friends for many years now, and he hadn't the courage to tell either of them. Wally was a well known flirt and very much believed to be straight as an arrow. He flirted with M'gann for months, flirted with Zatanna, flirted with random women he passed by or met on a daily basis, he flirted with Artemis, and he's even flirted with Dinah who was much older than he was.

But in reality, he had a crush on his two best friends in the whole world; Roy Harper and Dick Grayson. Yes, his two best male friends in the whole world. Which wasn't a problem...except that it was, because Wally West was not supposed to be gay. Or even bi. He was supposed to like girls. And even if he didn't, he highly doubted either Roy or Dick would ever feel for him what he felt for them. Roy was currently having some fling with Cheshire, and Dick seemed to be flirting with Zatanna quite a bit. But worse that all of that...

I have a crush on my two best friends in the whole world...and I...who do I choose? How can I choose?!

He mentally cursed his teenage hormones to hell and back. 17 years old, horny, and very much attracted to women, and yet he was developing feelings for his two best friends in the whole world, who were both guys! He was starting to sound like a broken record in his own mind, but he was so damn confused! What could he do?! Every time either of his friends were around, he'd feel his face heat up, his heart would flutter, and he found it difficult to hide these reactions from then, because, oh yeah, they were his two best friends in the whole world! They knew him almost as well as he knew himself!

"Something wrong, Wally? You seem...off," M'gann asked sweetly. Wally was snapped out of his reverie, lying down on the couch in Mount Justice with the TV going in the background, but not really paying attention to it. He bolted up off the couch, startled by her sudden appearance.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to spook you," she added in with the sweetest smile. Wally threw up his usual facade and flashed her a smirk.

"Me, spooked? More like haunted by your good looks," he said with a wink. M'gann giggled and hugged him.

"Now that's the Wally I recognize," she said sweetly. Wally's smirk faded into a smile; M'gann was always so sweet and chipper and it just had a way of lightening the mood in almost any atmosphere. It was hard not to smile around her, or stay mad at her for very long.

"So what's bothering you?" she asked. Wally contemplated telling her his dilemma, because he knew she, of all people, would never judge him or be critical of him. But at the same time, he was so reluctant to share this...secret. Then again, it would be good to tell someone...anyone. Wally sighed deeply and ran a hand through his hair, resigning himself to tell her. With the condition of keeping it a secret of course.

"Okay...there's...one thing," Wally began nervously, blushing crimson. M'gann tilted her head in curiosity, waiting patiently for him to continue. Wally fidgeted a bit nervously, twiddling his thumbs. This was much harder than he imagined it.

"Well...before I tell you, I need you to promise me something," he said firmly. M'gann's smile faltered slightly and she asked "okay, what?"

"You can't tell anyone. And I mean, anyone. Not Connor, not Artemis, Zatanna, Dinah, not even your uncle!" M'gann looked at him with slight concern and then Wally cleared his throat nervously.

"I promise." Wally nodded and cleared his throat again, looking around the cave nervously to see if anyone was nearby, then turned back to M'gann.

"The thing is...you see...I um...may have a, uh, crush on someone-" M'gann squealed a little before he could continue and he frantically shushed her, glancing around the cave to see if anyone had heard, or was coming.

"Ssssh! Let me finished."

"Sorry." So he cleared his throat again.

"You see...there are...um...two problems. I have a crush on...well...two people," he murmured, blushing as red as an apple. M'gann smiled sweetly and clasped her hands together.

"Oh? That's so cute! Who?" she asked sweetly. She obviously didn't seem to understand that having a crush on two different people was...well, he couldn't be with two different people at once.

"Uh...well...you see, it's...uh...Roy and Dick," Wally said quickly, slamming his eyes shut. A silence settled between them and when Wally opened his eyes, M'gann was staring at him with the sweetest smile. But she also looked like she was thinking.

"I think I understand! They're your best friends, and you're not sure they feel the same way about you, right?" Wally was surprised at how perceptive she was. Perhaps all this time around humans was actually paying off.

"Y-yeah, that's part of it. But the thing is...see, the way human relationships usually work is...um...well...I can't be with...with both of them. I have to...to choose. And I don't know how, because I like them both!" M'gann was still smiling, but listening intently as he spoke.

"And that's not even mentioning the fact that I...I can't...tell them. And then it sort of circles back to...who do I tell? How do I choose between them?" M'gann sat in silence, thoughtfully and Wally was silent too. He was watching her, trying to figure out what she was thinking. A fruitless effort, because he couldn't read anything on her. She gently placed her hand on top of his and asked "why can't you tell them both?"

Wally had to stop himself from looking at her like she had three heads; martian relationships were wildly different from human ones, he had to remind himself.

"Well...it's kind of a human thing. It's sort of...taboo, I guess to be with more than one person. It's like...cheating," he tried to explain. M'gann smiled sadly and kissed his head.

"I'm sorry, I'm not sure what to tell you. On Mars, I could just tell you to go for both of them. These types of relationships are just natural there. I'm sorry I can't be of more help." Wally shrugged and flashed a smile.

"Well, you helped a bit. It was good to get this off my chest."

Dick Grayson was in trouble. That problem was, that he was gay and was hiding it by dating Zatanna. And not only that, but he had a crush on his two best friends in the world; Wally West and Roy Harper. But Roy had this thing with Cheshire, so he couldn't possibly be gay. And Wally only flirted with girls; Dick had never seen Wally make a move on a guy, or even show the slightest interest in one beyond friendship.

But the hardest part was that nobody even knew he was gay...except Zatanna. She suspected something was wrong, because he didn't seem all that into their relationship, so she cornered him in his room at Mount Justice and asked him what was wrong and he was now currently spilling his guts out to her.

"So...you're gay?" Zatanna asked. Dick gave a curt nod, eyes hidden behind his shades, and averted to the floor. Zatanna simply giggled and said "I see...I thought maybe you didn't like me. Well...I guess you don't, not in the way I wanted you to." Dick blushed a bit and felt kind of bad for leading her on.

"I'm sorry Zatanna, I-"

"Don't apologize for how you feel. But I'm more curious about this...crush of yours." Dick blushed even deeper and edged away from her a little.

"I...can't tell you that...it's um...complicated." Zatanna scooted a little closer and asked "complicated? In what way? I'm your friend, you know you can tell me, right?" Dick glanced up at her and flashed a smile. He took a few deep breaths and decided that since he'd spilled everything else, why not this too?

"Well...the thing is...I have a crush...but...on two people." Zatanna seemed to immediately recognize the 'complicated' part. She opened her mouth a bit in an 'oh' but didn't make a sound, then rested her hand on his shoulder.

"Well...who is it?" she asked. Dick glanced up at her in surprise, because honestly, he was half expecting a 'well, you have to choose one' kind of speech. He bit his lip, reluctant to reveal the identity of the two men who held his attraction. Finally, he just blurted out "Roy and Wally." Zatanna did that 'oh' thing again but looked a bit more stunned now. Dick averted his eyes to the bed again, unable to look at her and when she did speak, it wasn't what he was expecting. Okay, maybe a little.

"Um...I see...well, isn't Roy a little...old for you? I mean, you're 15, and he's 20. There's a 5 year difference there." Dick huffed, a bit annoyed and Zatanna shook her head.

"Sorry, I'm not helping," she replied, flashing him an apologetic smile. Dick managed a small smile back, but he didn't say what he was thinking; that she really wasn't. Though honestly, he appreciated the fact that she was taking the time to listen and be patient, and not be judgmental. There weren't very many people in the world who would be willing to do that.

He knew he could talk to Bruce, but somehow, that seemed very...awkward. Connor and Kaldur were out of the question; Connor wouldn't understand, and Kaldur...probably wouldn't either. Artemis was a definite no-no. She'd just crack jokes and poke fun at him. She probably would listen, but he didn't really need the jokes right now.

"I'm...not really sure what to say here," Zatanna admitted with a nervous laugh, eliciting a slight chuckle from Dick. She patted his knee and said "I'm sure whatever you decide to do, everyone will stand by you."

"I don't know about that..."

"We're friends, of course we will! I mean, I definitely will but..." Zatanna huffed, finding it hard to find the right words.

"Just...hang in there, okay?" Dick quirked an eyebrow at her.

"Hang in there? That's your advice?" he teased. Zatanna snorted and playfully slapped his arm.

"Shut up, it's all I got!" she said with a giggle.

Roy Harper didn't know what to do. He had feelings for his two best friends in the whole world, and despite his little fling with Cheshire, he wasn't attracted to her like he was to them. But the real problem was, that he didn't know how to choose between them; he liked them both a lot. But it only got worse; because there was an obvious age gap between him and one of the people he liked; Dick Grayson. Between him and Dick, there were five years between them. He was too old for Dick, but there were only three years between himself and Wally, his other crush.

Yet he liked Dick too. A lot in fact. Thus why he was so confused. Or at least, that was a part of it. He'd already let Cheshire down but he didn't tell her who it was he had feelings for. Yet somehow, in her own...unique way, she already seemed to know. But she had nothing to offer him, except the usual teasing, and then vanishing. So here he was, sitting alone in his apartment, which, honestly was in better shape that it could have been. It wasn't anything spectacular; Two bedrooms, one bathroom, a living room and a kitchen. Plain white walls, ordinary wooden floor, save for the carpet in the bedroom and living room, and a single TV in his living room with a game console. The video games helped him channel his anger and frustration, something he had a lot of lately.

But they couldn't help him cope with these feelings he had; a crush he had on two people, both of them men. Dick Grayson, who was too young for him, and Wally West. He didn't know how to tell either of them how he felt. He was certain if he tried to get with Dick, Bruce would skin him alive. And talking to Wally about crushes and shit was awkward. Telling the speedster that he, Roy Harper, was harboring feelings for him? Doubly awkward.

In a way, he kind of resented Arsenal, not because he was the "original Roy Harper" but because he was biologically younger, at only 16 years old. He could date Dick Grayson, something he couldn't do because of his age. This was a problem, because it was distracting him every time he was near either of them. It was easy to fool them, and everyone, with his tough guy, lone wolf attitude, because he'd been doing it for years. It came second nature to him.

But despite that, Dick and Wally had always been like little brothers to him, and he had always been like their older brother. At least that's how it was until he realize he had a crush on both of them.

He was currently playing some fighting game, teeth gnashing together as he jammed the controls, playing our his frustration and anger. He hated feeling like this, because the cared so much for both of them, but there were so many problems with, just, all of it, and it frustrated him, because the more he thought about it, the more complicated it seemed, and the further away any answers got from him, and god dammit! He tossed the controller onto the floor, completely aggravated at this point. The video game simply wasn't working any more, instead it was just making him angrier.

This frustration, this anger, on top of everything else he was carrying; ending up alone, having feelings for people he couldn't confess to, or was forbidden to be with, his anger at Ollie and the League. He hadn't planned on being alone, he wanted his friends to follow him when he left, but they didn't.

And why would they? Roy Harper was just being a spoiled child, but he was too proud to admit it, too proud to go back to them, to join the team. So instead, he opted to be alone and suffer in silence like an prideful, spoiled child. And there was the underlying issue; he was angry at himself too, because everything that he was feeling was ultimately his own fault.

He had no one, and he had no one because he chose to have no one. He chose to be alone, because his god damned pride wouldn't allow for him to admit he was wrong. It wouldn't allow for him to go back to his friends, to join the team, because that would somehow be admitting that he was wrong. And his pride wouldn't let him be wrong. He choked back a sob, of frustration, stress, and the sorrow of being alone, and pressed his fingers to his eyes, stopping the tears that threatened to fall.

It was on days like these, he contemplated calling...someone, anyone just so he could talk. Just so he wouldn't have to be alone. But he had to be alone for the sake of his pride. Dinah had once offered him her ear if he ever needed to talk. He had always been an ass to everyone and yet she still reached out and offered to help him in spite of that. On days like this, it was very tempting to call her, ask her to come over, and just spill his guts.

She acted as the Team's counselor, and she never judged, which was something he could really use right now; an ear to listen, belonging to a person who wouldn't judge him, who wouldn't criticize him, but would just listen and not tell him only what he wanted to hear. Dinah was very good at the latter.

He leaned back and sighed deeply, his thoughts wandering off to his two rushes; Dick Grayson with his beautiful blue eyes, his laughter, and the simple excitement the boy had for damn near everything he did. And then Wally, with his fiery red hair, his emerald green eyes, that goofy grin and his nonchalant attitude and the ability to crack a joke and make people laugh in virtually any situation.

He loved them both...and he felt like he couldn't have-no, he didn't deserve-either of them...