Chapter 1 ~ The flames of hope finally extinguished

Flashback

My hands were sweaty and my knees shaking violently. There I stood, gathering all the courage I had left. I was going to confess my love for Sasuke-kun, again. Hoping that now with the death of his brother he could maybe move on? That he might be able to accept my love.

I walked towards him praying my face wouldn't reveal the little heartattack I was having.

"Sasuke-kun, can I speak with you for a moment?"

After that there was a long unconfortable silence. Before he would reject me again I insisted.

"Just a few minutes. It won't take long, I promise."

He nodded.

Okay here we go, I thought.

Sasuke-kun, I love you. I have loved before I even knew what the word love meant and I still do.

I don't know what I expected, I don't know why I thought he would love me back. I don't know why hoped that this time everything would be different. I just don't know. Because as I waited for an answer, he turned around and walked away. Without saying anything, without letting his facial expression betray his emotions.

He just walked away and left me there, standing with tears in my eyes as I realised what had happened. While he walked away, I still hoped. I still hoped he would turn around and say something. Anything.

But he didn't.

He just kept walking as if nothing had happend, as if I hadn't put my heart in his hand, as if he hadn't crushed it into a million pieces.

When he got out of sight my knees couldn't hold on much longer and gave in, I fell to the ground and sat there in disbelief.

Foolish stupid little girl, you never learn, do you? Nothing had changed.

Tears started rolling down my cheeks. I cried silently so no one would hear. I cried and cried. Time past by and I didn't even notice.

I felt rejected. I felt humiliated. I felt broken.

But most of all, I was hurt.

After what seemed an eternity I stood up and walked slowly towards my apartment. I am not sure how I got there, but when I finally closed my door behind me I knew one thing, that I never want to be hurt like that ever again.

End of Flasback

I am done trying to earn Sasuke's love. I am done humiliating myself. I am done grasping for the crumbles of love Sasuke-kun offers.

I am done with Sasuke.