Disclaimer: Right so everything belongs to Square Enix and Disney. Sad but true, I am only allowed to play with them in my fantasy world *le sigh*
A/N: Alright so this is just something random I felt like writing the other day. I was going to turn it into something but I found that I like it much better the way it is. I just figured I would post it on here. I have another Kingdom Hearts fic in the works in my mind, definitely longer then this little bit. Anyways, enjoy! Please read and review! Reviews make my day they really do! X3
Darkness
I have always been afraid of the dark. Afraid of that never ending black that seems to obliterate everything. There was just something about the black that seemed to suck in everything, good or bad, and turn it to nothing. I was afraid of it and I always knew that that was how I would end, getting sucked in by that nothing. I hated it, that I knew where I would end up and so everything I did, every action was to carry me away from that darkness that seemed to get closer. My fire, the cockiness, it was all just a vain attempt to keep the dark at bay. I knew though that I couldn't, that the darkness would somehow get me someday and leave me here, forever a part of the nothing in the darkness.
Except now that I am a part of the dark I realize that it's not full of nothing after all. It is the exact opposite, the darkness is utter chaos. I guess I'm not the first to realize this. The ancient Greeks had the knowledge long before that there was such a thing as nothing. Everything started from the blackness that was chaos. Chaos is an interesting thing, it essentially is the lack of order and so everything in the darkness is without order. I'm surprised that I can even maintain the smallest bit of consciousness in this disarray but I hold onto the fact. It's the only thing I have that makes me hope that I will eventually leave this darkness one day, that I have a soul of some sort, a heart. I will leave here one day and gain a freedom where I can be a better person, one that won't end up here.
Memories are a strange thing in the chaos. It's hard to piece them together to create some semblance of a history or a time line, the memories just are. And they are so bright and so clear, even if you can't make any real sense out of them. There are always I few things I always get from them though. The people who always seem to make everything better, they are like little suns here in the darkness, radiating warm and happiness. I didn't even realize how much I would miss everyone now that I'm here, even the ones that I hated. I wonder if they are here too, trapped in this chaos in the same way. The memories also hold the facts that I had been too blind to see before. I was too blind to see just how much good I had and yet I fought for something more and ended up losing it all. I guess that's what you get in the end when you don't take the time to see what's around you. Looking back on those memories now, I wish that I had.
I hold on to the memories though, they are all that I have here. The memories and the people in them that make me feel like I don't belong here in the Darkness. I hold on to the hope that I won't be here in this darkness forever. The hope and the memories of the people that made me whole. Until I make it out of here they are all I have...