Chapter 1

Ruthie walked down the hallway of her school, she looked down at the ground and twiddled her fingers. She was going to meet Meredith outside like they did normaly, Ruthie had been different lately and everyone knew why.Martin Brewer. That name could break her heart more into a million peices by just hearing it or at least thats what the first few months were like after he left without so much as a goodbye or any contact. When Ruthie even had somewhat of a smile on her face it could all go away in a instant if anything reminded her of him. Meredith tried hard to keep her bestfriend happy at least a little, she got almost no where day after day. Ruthie tried to act happy and be strong but everyone knew that inside she was breaking, and the worst part was they didnt know what to do. She walked out side and saw Meredith waiting for her with some guy she had never seen before, he was cute Ruthie thought then instantly felt sad after thinking that because Martin once again popped in there. He was the complete oppisite of Martin, bleach blonde hair and the typical baby blue eyes that made any girl melt.

"Hey Ruthie" Meredith said, as Ruthie walked down the steps the mention of Meredith talking to someone caused the blonde guy to turn his head. He had good style that most guys wouldnt and Ruthie liked something about it.

"Hey" she said standing next to Meredith, Ruthie looked over at the guy.

"Oh sorry, this is my cousin Skylar he just transferred from Maine. Skylar this is my best friend in the whole entire world Ruthie" Meredith said, this cause Ruthie to smile slightly.

"Hey" Skylar said to her which caused Ruthie to look at him he was looking into her eyes and she instantly felt something, he knew. He could tell she was in pain and he didnt even know her, the way he was looking at her now was to intense, she droped her gaze the ground uncomftorablly and backed up a few spaces.

"Meredith I'm sorry, but I cant go to Promenade today, mom needs help watching Sam and David, she had to go into town and Lucys out doing something with Savannah" Ruthie says backing up more still looking at her friend.

Meredith knew this trick, Ruthie had been playing it for weeks whenever she was gonna break down about Martin she would leave to go home and cry. Meredith knew already that she needed to be alone and understood. "No, no thats fine" Meredith said "I'll call you later" Meredith finished.

Ruthie nodded and turned around walking to her parents car and getting into it, she waved slightly and pulled out of the school parking lot. The whole ride home Ruthie tried hard to stop from crying, this had happened regulary and she usually could make it into her room and break down there. Right now though had felt strong like it had when Martin first left and she could barely function a day without crying every 5 minutes.

She pulled into the Camdens driveway and parked the car, she got out and grabbed her bag she ran inside and was greeted by Annie.

"Hey sweetie, how was youre day?" Annie asked peeling potatoes, Annie watched her daughter and knew what would happen next she would get the same old reply and Ruthie would run up to her room and stay there until dinner, then quickly go back up again.

"Same old, same old mom" she said and turned going up the stair, Annie watched her daughter sadly it was heart breaking to watch her daughter go through this everyday and knew it would make her stronger in the long run but at the same time Annie couldnt take it much longer.

Eric came in the back door, he looked at his wife and instantly knew what was wrong.

"If this helps any I talked to Martins dad today, and Martins coming back to Glenoak for a little while, he misses the family and decided to stay for a little while. I told him he was welcome here anytime and knew better to ask" Eric says.

Annie looked hopefully at her husband and smiled, "Ruthie is going to be so happy" Annie replied hugging her husband." I just hope she doesnt get much worse before he comes. When is he coming?" Annie asked thrilled.

"One week, Next friday" Eric said.

Ruthie layed on her bed softly crying, she soon got up and decided she couldnt take doing this everyday, she needed anything to stop this pain that she had felt. There was a rave that she had been invited to at school, her and Meredith knew better not to go, because of all the drugs and violence and madness that went on at them. At that moment Ruthie didnt care and she knew she could get out of the house easily since she hadnt left it much at all in months, and her parents would do anything to get her out. She quickly headed down stairs.

"Mom, Is it ohkay if I go out tonight. Theres a party that Meredith and I were plan on going to tonight" Ruthie lied, not about the party but about Meredith and it being a party, a rave. Annie smiled thrilled that her daughter was finally ready.

"Yes of course honey, are you staying with Meredith tonight?" Her mother asked her, Ruthie thought quickly. " Yeah, I'll be home Saturday morning" Ruthie said, " I gotta go pack" Ruthie said and ran upstairs, the truth was Annie was happy and Ruthie was confused what was she doing. She took a bag and put clothes into it, Merediths family was gone for the weekend and Meredith wouldnt mind if Ruthie crashed there.