A/N- Hey guys! This is the first fic I've posted in a while! I've been writing for a little bit, but I haven't posted any of my work. So this may be a little rusty! But hopefully you guys like it. This is going to start out as Brucas, but this is a Brulian fic! Don't get me wrong, I love Brucas, but I'm finding myself loving all the Brulian action going on! =) I'm going to start this out in present time and then after that it's going to be dated a few months back. I'm going to work my way up to present time gradually. I hope thats not confusing! So hopefully you guys like this! Please let me know what you guys think! Enjoy.

Summary: Brooke Davis has everything she could ever ask for. A great boyfriend, amazing friends, and an overall great life. She was the type of person who liked to have everything in her control. But what happens when her whole life is turned upside down? Will she rise above it and remain the same girl she's always been? Or will the world be introduced to a new Brooke Davis? Major Brulian, Naley, Jeyton, Some Brucas & Peyton/Julian.

Disclaimer: I don't own One Tree Hill nor am I in any way affiliated with any of the actors of the show.

Prologue

March 10, 2006

Brooke's POV

I didn't need to turn around to know that he was there. I could feel his presence the moment he stepped into the gym.

Plastering a smile on my face, I begin to jump up and down screaming "Go Ravens!" with the rest of my squad. I try so desperately to avoid his piercing brown eyes.

How could he come here? How could he come here with Lucas here? With Peyton here? How could he come here, knowing that this was killing me?

Like it's killing him? I hear a voice in my head remind me, but I shake my head. I can't go there tonight.

I glance at Peyton anxiously, afraid that she might have already seen him. The smile on her face lets me know that she hasn't.

I sigh, quietly.

I should have known he wouldn't stay away. How could I ask that of him, knowing that I wouldn't be able to stay away, had he asked me. It was unfair to him. It was unfair to me. It was unfair to Lucas and Peyton.

Oh god, Lucas. I was a horrible girlfriend. How could I do this to him? And Peyton? She was going to hate me.

I could feel his eyes on me, waiting. Waiting for me to finally look up at him, but I couldn't. I couldn't let myself go there. Because I knew there was no returning.

Taking a deep breath, I turn toward Haley and Peyton. I offer them a smile as they smile at me, but I know that mine doesn't mirror theirs. I hope they don't notice. How would I explain this to them? What would I say to Peyton?

I watch as the last seconds of the clock run out, and feel myself growing more and more anxious. Had anyone seen him yet? Was he even still here? I was afraid to look.

"Brooke! We won!" I hear Haley squeal, before running onto the court. No doubt to find Nathan. The Ravens had just won the championship, after all.

I spot Lucas making his way toward me, and I feel my pulse quicken at the sight of him. I hear a voice in the back of my head telling me that I don't deserve him, but I push it aside. I already know that.

"Congratulations, Broody!" I hug him tight. I feel like every time I hug him lately, I'm afraid to let go. I'm afraid its going to be the last time he holds me in his arms.

It's not like you wouldn't deserve it, the voice in my head taunts. I bury my head into his neck, hiding from the voice.

I take a deep breath, letting the scent of him fill my senses.

"Thanks, Pretty Girl." He whispers in my ear, holding me close.

I feel my heart thud into my chest as he rubs his hands up and down my back, and for a moment I'm scared that he could hear it. It was deafening. I look up slowly, and see him smiling brightly and right away I know that he can't. I feel myself sigh in relief.

He leans in and kisses me tenderly, and for a moment I allow myself to get lost in his kiss.

But he pulls away too soon, and I'm once again painfully aware of the piercing eyes just a few feet away.

"You ready to go?" He asks me, kissing my forehead softly.

I feel a lump forming in the back of my throat as tears sting my eyes as the pain almost consumes me, but I swallow it away, knowing I can't loose control. Not here. Not infront of Lucas.

Not in front of him.

I nod, unable to trust my voice right now.

He smiles, wrapping his arm around my shoulders before leading me toward the double doors across the gym.

I look over and see Peyton and Jake talking to Mr. and Mrs. Jagielski. I can tell from the smile on her face that she hasn't seen him. Not yet.

It's right before we reach the doors that I allow myself to turn and look at him.

He's staring at me, and even from across the gym I can see the emotion in his eyes. Anger, pain, sadness.

I feel like my heart slam against my chest as he takes a step toward me and he stops, his eyes burning into mine.

I can't help but wish he hadn't stopped. But I'm glad that he did.

I wish for a second that I can go to him, wrap my arms around him and kiss away the pain. But I know that I can't.

I need to get out of here before Lucas sees him. Before Peyton sees him.

"What's he doing here?" I hear Lucas growl, angrily. He tightens his hold around my shoulders, causing me to look up at him in surprise. Did I say that out loud?

I look over at him again, silently begging him to go. Please. For me, I beg.

I can't let this happen. Not here, not now. Not ever.

"Who?" I hear Nathan ask Lucas. I didn't even hear Nathan and Haley walk over to us.

And as he says his name, I feel my heart beating so fast, I feel like it's going to burst through my chest at any moment.

I'd been so careful not to speak the name. The name that literally knocked the breath out of me. The name I wanted so badly to forget.

But the name I knew so well.

"Julian Baker."


* A/N : I'm sorry that it's so short, but its just the prologue! I've had this idea brewing for a little while now, and after watching Monday's episode, I decided to give it a chance! I hope that I didn't confuse anyone. I didn't wanna give away too much. I'm going to start the first chapter a couple of months before this, so I can explain everything leading up to this point. It's been a while since I wrote a fic, so be gentle! Anything you guys liked/disliked/loved/hated let me know! I'm open for any ideas or suggestions. Thanks so much!