Disclaimer: Himitsu-chan doesn't own Naruto characters. The plot is her own.
And Himitsu-chan hopes you can enjoy the oneshot!
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Father was sitting across from me, my mother was beside him as well, while my brother stood behind them. They were waiting for my answer. Slowly I allow my dark eyes to wander towards their's, meeting the expectant gazes of my parents and the knowing look in my older brother's equally mysterious eyes.
I felt a sharp jolt of pain hit my heart as I looked at them. The perfect family, was being shoved in my face. I was so like them, I was a member of that family. I am a member of that family and yet as I watch I could not see where I belonged in that image. Apparently, my eyes had shown the slightest hint of my emotions for my brother furrowed his brow in scrutiny.
My father's voice cut through, silent expectations were there in his voice,
"Well, Sasuke?"
My mind instantly reeled in pain, I knew the second I agreed I would lose all hope of ever salvaging my brutally abused mind. And yet still, I could not find the strength to refuse his demand to become his confidential informant from within the government of the city I grew up in and love. I was a fresh ANBU Captain twenty-two year old. Twenty-two because back then I had forced myself to excel in my grades even as a naturally brilliant boy allowing the school to put me ahead a few more grades.
My brother however still had me flat out beat, for even as only five years my senior, he had already been running the family business for 4 years, the years prior to that, he had been an agent in a special unit of ANBU.
I would never be able to reach that level of brilliance, no matter how hard I tried. He is a natural-born genius, I am a child who will never reach the light just beyond him.
My father would never see me as Sasuke, forever I would remain the little child that was no more than a bother, and now a pawn.
My dark eyes grew darker at this thought, slowly I allow my eyes to reveal my true self.
My pale lips parted, my façade crumbled as I broke for the first time in a total of 14 years.
"I can't, Uchiha-sama. Because I don't know anymore."
The cool and collected man I had been masquerading as vanished as the serious look on my face, dissolved to a dazed expression of exhaustion, confusion and pain.
The man I was as a handsome, young figure, seemed to dissipate to a child who was far more matured beyond his age. I felt tears gathering in my eyes, however I made no move to stop them from forming or falling. I smiled slowly, a soft accepting smile of defeat. I pulled myself up refusing to look at the people I called my family, Standing, I hung my head and turned away leaving the room sluggishly. I paused at the door,
"I'm Sorry…"
My crumbling walls collapsed completely as I swiftly flung the door open and took off. My coat was flapping in the wind I made as I ran from everything, my chest was constricting as my heart continued to break while I tried so hard to salvage and piece myself together desperately. The dark halls of the house that had stopped being a home wasn't helping me as I remembered the memories that occurred in the halls of this house.
I hardly realized that I was about to run off the steps of the hall leading to the living room until I was stumbling into the furniture. My ragged breathing was painful as I steadily lost control of myself and just let the flames of bittersweet pain engulf me. I was curled in a mess on the tatami floor boards of the room. Suddenly there was a painful scream, one filled with such agony and hurt, it seemed to freeze everything in place. I realized vaguely that the haunting sound had come from me, as I continued to give into the pain, unable to fight it any longer.
Relatives came running, as everyone I had known since birth stood in stunned silence, horrified by the way I was acting. I saw blurry figures through my tears and my heart gave a such an agonizing squeeze, I could do nothing but give in. My resolve had crumbled ages ago, I was broken and suffering. I felt hands and heard a faint voice like my mother's. But it faded in seconds as the waves of hurt washed over me. My hands flew to my heart, clawing at my flesh, anything to make it stop.
Momentarily it was clear, and I said the only thing that could break everything I had surrounded myself with. My ragged voice gasped out painfully,
"Help me…"
And with that I voluntarily flung myself into the dark abyss that was now my shattered mind.
I knew that no matter what happens, my family would never see by my eyes. They would never understand why, for they have always been the one handing out these expectations only one like my prodigious brother could reach and surpass. By my cursed eyes, I would suffer because of everything I have done and been expected to do.
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Well that is my FIRST fic ever by myself.
*parties* This is a oneshot in case you haven't noticed but It might continue if I am persuaded ^_~ *wink wink hint hint*
So please help me and grace me with your lovely reviews :D
With much pleading,
Silent-Himitsu a.k.a Shiroi
Much thanks to my beloved friend and FIRST reviewer, Tokashi Yamatatsu! I love you very very much ^_^
I might change the status and make multiple views from different family members of the Main Uchiha Family, so I'll let that simmer in my head till I think of something, My deadline should be October 30 Tokashi-chan!
With much sibling-like affection,
Shiroi 3
P.S. PEOPLE READ TOKASHI-CHAN'S FICS PLEASE! THEY ARE VERY VERY INTERESTING :D and wonderous-ful :3