Lessons of the mind,
From Draco to daddy
By Painted Petals
Every night,
You come into my room,
In the name of teaching.
You sneak into my bed,
So not to wake mother,
Although you know that she knows,
You wake me from my pretend sleep.
How could I sleep when I know what's coming?
You strip me of my pajamas,
A practiced thing you've done in your head for years,
Your sick, demented hand touches me,
So cold,
While you touch yourself.
Every night,
I pray this will suffice your desire,
But I am proven wrong when you growl into my ear,
And flip me onto my stomach,
I am nothing but a rag doll in your sick games,
You force yourself upon me,
And I pretend that I can't feel this,
That I am far away in a world where kids never grow up,
Your growling and painful thrusts sways bring me back.
Why can't you let me leave,
If only for once?
Every night,
This horror drags on,
And on,
And on...
Till finally,
It's over.
You pull out,
And drop me like I'm trash.
I'll serve no purpose until the next night,
What will you do when I return to school for the season?
You tell me you love me,
That your teaching me to be a malfoy,
You say this because you're afraid.
You're no better than your father.
You tell me to sleep well,
Is that what he said to you?
You walk to your shower to rinse away your desires,
And the reminisce of my skin,
You tell your self that you won't do it again,
But we both know that's a lie.
Every night,
I cry myself to sleep,
That's plagued by nightmares.
But tonight,
Will be different.
Tonight,
I won't let you touch me.
I won't let the pain win.
Tonight,
I'll gain control the only way I can.
Tonight,
You'll come home late,
You'll skip dinner,
And retreat to your office to avoid mum.
But shell find you,
And shell tell you I haven't left my room all day,
You'll walk up the stairs,
Ion a slow but curious manor.
Your cane will hit each step with a loud,
Frightening sound.
when you get to my door,
You'll be angered to find that it's locked.
I'll deserve a beating, most definitely.
But,
Will you ever wonder what's wrong with your boy?
Will you be worried about your son, daddy?
You'll use your dark wand to unlock my door,
After knocking doesn't get me to open the door.
When you open the door,
You'll find me.
Tonight,
I'll go out on a river of red.
Will you cry?
Or just be disappointed?
This'll surely ruin your night.
Will you be upset that tonight you will have lost secret your fuck buddy?
Daddy,
will you tell mum that it was your fault?
Or will you blame her?
Tonight,
I'll go to heaven,
You've always said I won't.
Maybe I'll go just to prove you wrong.
Tonight,
Mum will cry,
And I'm so sorry,
But will she leave?
Will you be left all alone,
With your world turned upside down?
Will you say you're sorry?
Daddy,
Will you say I've made you proud?
Tonight,
I'll be free.
I'll be strong.
I'll look death in the eyes.
Will I have made you proud,
Tonight?
Will I have been a true malfoy,
Tonight?
Will you wish I would have said good bye
when you bury your only son?
Will you cry when they close my casket?
Will I have released your biggest secret,
Will you forgive me,
Forget me?
Or,
Will you join me in death?
Most of all,
Will you hear me say,
I love you,
Daddy,
As I take my own life?