DISCLAIMER: As much as I love Twilight, and as much as I want to, I hold no claim over any of Stephanie Meyer's characters or ingenious ideas.
It's never easy to be chosen, never easy to be called
Standing on the frontline when the bombs start to fall
I can see the heavens but I still hear the flames
Calling out my name…
Who Am I Living For? – Katy Perry
Prologue
Sometimes people need to get away for the stresses and the frightening things that life throws at you. Sometimes you need to hide from the realities that you don't want to face, in the moment or at anytime in your life.
Life is something that everyone goes through, each person, at one time of another, faces the same sort of fears or obstacles in life.
Some of these obstacles are overcome easily, without much thought or effort. Some take time, patience and hard work. Some of the difficulties in life cannot be solved, or are not meant to. You are just supposed to recover and move on, avoiding or adapting to the new and, most of the time, unwanted change.
In a mortals life, most of the drastic changes involve puberty and growing from being cared for to moving out of home and becoming more independent in oneself. These things, whether male or female, are difficult, uncomfortable and lead to very distressing circumstances.
The troubles and obstacles for that of an immortal are much, much different.
Living forever holds its perks, being indestructible, powerful and unstoppable can hold a rush like no other and bring you an indescribable happiness that you can't describe.
Of course, there is a down side to this as well. Nothing good comes without something bad to stop it.
All bad guys have to have somebody to fight otherwise they would be normal people, like everyone that walks planet earth.
Immortals have the both, good and bad parts of them. The part of them that was once human or normal contains the good part. Most people call it the humane part.
The part that takes over once turned or affected by something that causes immortality is the bad part.
It takes over, changes you in a bad way. Possesses you to get what it wants. Takes over you to the point where you think you are too far gone to ever get back to the person you once were.
Makes you want to escape from the world as it has become for you. As it changes you, manipulates you into the person you never would have ever dreamed of being.
You become a nightmare inside your own mind and even if you are the good person inside, it is always there waiting for an opportunity to strike and to take over when you become weak and vulnerable.
Taking control of both sides of you take a long time and much practise. You can eventually merge both into one. You are a good but willing to the inevitable or dangerous if need be.
This is a very important part of being a Vampire.