"Potter, what are you doing here?"

Harry finally tore his gaze from the stone floor to look up. His back was resting on door to Snape's rooms. He smiled, but even tactless and asocial professor of potions could tell it was fake.

"Can you give me a detention?" Harry was still smiling poorly. Snape noticed dark circles under eyes which were once so shining and bright.

"Unfortunately, I am no more allowed to do that, professor," Snape smirked and crossed his arms.

"That is really liverish," Harry sighted. He didn't look like he was going to move anytime soon.

"What are you doing here?" Severus asked again. His stare examined young man. He could never tell what was going on in that brainless head. And what more – why the owner of said head always come to him when he was in trouble. Didn't he have loads of friends to talk to? Didn't he have his soon-to-be-wife at home in Burrow? Why Severus?

Potter wasn't answering, and Snape wasn't heartless after all. He had some kind of weakness when it concerned this boy. He sighted loudly to express his annoyance, but he still sat down beside him. He found it humiliating and hoped none of his students would see them like this. He was sure Potter will pay for this later.

"I can't do it, Severus," Harry covered his face and rested his head on the door with rather dull thump.

"What exactly?" Snape smirked. Having Potter calling him by his first name so casually really felt different. Where were the times when he was so afraid of him?

Guess after the war there really isn't anything Potter could fear about me…

"I can't marry her. I can't have children and family and live happily ever after," his voice was full of tears, yet none would escape his eyes. Severus really didn't understand him at all.

"What are you talking about? Isn't family the only thing your heart truly desired all these years?" Snape wasn't looking at him. Just touching him merely by the shoulder was disturbing enough.

"Even after the war she is so pure, so innocent, so naïve. I can't touch her with these hands," Harry waved his hands in the air. Severus looked at them. He didn't say anything about Potter calling someone naïve, but he sure let his face express what he thought.

"You are full of naivety yourself, Potter. Do not give yourself too much credit," Severus let slip one bitter comment. Harry chuckled.

"You're the one who is still the same. You even look the same!"

"Since when we are on such a friendly basis?"

"Since the moment you saved me?"

"You have to be more specific. There were lots of times I saved your stupid ungrateful arse," Severus smiled.

"That's right! You did. Maybe you shouldn't have tried that hard," Harry whispered.

"What are you trying to say?" Severus looked at the young man properly for the first time. His eyes were closed, his face shown he was in pain, his hands even trembled a little.

"I'm broken, Severus. I thought I could be my old self when this nightmare is over, but I'm not. I can't. I'm still afraid."

"You do not have anything to be afraid of. You are still young, full of life. You would be a fool to throw it away."

"I'm afraid of life. I'm afraid of the dark. I'm afraid I have to kill again. How could hands that sacrificed friends, hurt them, threw them into danger and made them kill, create something as innocent as new life? I'm not a hero, Severus. I'm a murderer. And the blood will never wash away."

Severus was kind of amazed by depths of Harry's thoughts. He sat in silence simply because Potter was right for once. How could anyone live with such a burden? In the end darkness always win. Even if you destroy it, you destroy part of yourself in the process.

"That is true. You are not a hero. You are something far greater. You are a hope, Harry. These hands you are blaming, created new tomorrow. You will never be the bad guy you want to become so much. The world is the villain. The world made you a savior, the world gave you fate and made you responsible for something a child such as yourself should never be responsible for," Severus spoke gently and quietly. He even reached for Harry's hand and held it tightly.

"Even if you claim to be a murderer, your hands are warm. And so is your heart, Harry,"

The boy looked at Severus. He didn't say anything, but his eyes screamed thousands of words at once. Finally, it became too much, and the words started to overflow making his eyes look like never-ending ocean. He hid his face in the older man's shoulder. Out of shame and pain he didn't want to show it to his mentor.

Listening to Harry's sobbing caused Severus' heart to break a little. Carefully he turned to face him. Harry wasn't looking at him. With his free hand he covered his face, so Severus wouldn't see him like this.

"You have good, brave and loyal heart. You do not have to fight for others anymore. Let the nightmare go. The only one who needs to be saved is you, Potter," for briefest second Severus touched Harry's cheek. The young wizard looked at him and smiled.

"What happened to Harry?"

"It was getting too sentimental," Snape muttered.

"I liked it though," Harry wiped his eyes.

"You cannot have everything you like, Potter," Severus growled in embarrassment.

"Apparently," the Golden boy smiled cheekily.

Hello my beautiful readers!

On with the new story! As you can see in the name of the chapter this is part one of Prologue. It won't be long, it goes on for next two chapters and then the true storyline begins! In this three chapters I tried to set the basic questions and problems which will be the main plot of the story!

The main story will focus on different problems, so I probably divide it in some parts as well.

You can look forward to some other HP characters. It's a big change from Hands and I'm curious too how I will manage it.

Other important information is that this story isn't anything edgy or depressing. After the prologue it will be fluffy again. I just can't help it I love writing and reading cute and adorable things.

However, it will be something more that just sex and feelings. You can expect stronger storyline and mature thinking!

Since I have part of the story already written I'll try to post regularly and not so much randomly. That being said I'll post the next part soon, the whole Prologue will be out shortly after New year!

Thank you so much for your support and I hope you will like this!

Bye for now!