Because of You
A/N: I was feeling all emo-ish and wrote this. Takes place after Edward leaves. It's a letter Bella writes to Edward, deciding to take her own life.
Edward,
Do you remember the first day we met?
Did you forget? Do you regret?
"As if I never existed", like that could ring true.
You said you didn't want me, but I'll always love you.
I hope you never lose the memory of that day when you left.
I hope it comes to mind, my screams, the ones that would've made you deaf.
I still whimper and cry at every thought of you,
And I think of you with every word I say and every thing I do.
I hope you think of me when you're having the best of times.
Remember when you called me yours and I called you mine?
I don't understand what caused you to leave.
Was it because I was clumsy, ignorant, or naïve?
It doesn't matter now, because I'm most likely laying in a pool of blood.
Do you see what you've done to me? What you made me become?
Now, imagine me placing the dull razor against my scar-covered wrist.
Imagine me pressing down, the smell of rust and salt in the mist.
Imagine me happy now and imagine me with a smile planted on my face.
Imagine me digging the blade in deeper, with a newly discovered grace.
Imagine me laughing as tears rolled down my cheeks.
Imagine me dying on these crisp, white sheets.
Do you see it, my dear Edward?
Do you see the death you've caused?
Go ahead and take that unneeded breath, go ahead and take that pause.
Please let it sink in that you killed me. Yes, it's true.
Here I lie, a lifeless mess, and all because of you.
-Isabella