A/N I had been thinking of something like this since last Sunday, I guess my muse couldn't let this pass.

Disclaimer: I don't own OUAT or Dinsey.

Over my frozen heart

Regina Mills was in pain, a pain that she, herself maintained only for egotistic purposes. She knew that keeping the pain she would keep hurting herself but letting the pain go meant that she needed to address something scarier than the heartache.

She wasn't a coward, under her fist she had cast a curse and maintained said cursed until the savior show up. No, she was strong, dedicated, even her mother couldn't argue with that. But the truth was that Regina feared a little the idea of a happy ending. She wanted one, she wanted to be seen as an equal, not as a monster, but the idea of a happy ending scared her a little because almost all of her life she had felt pain, heartache. She was so accustomed to that she barely felt the pain in her lungs every time that she needed to fill them. She had lived in pain and regret almost all of her life and letting go that pain would mean to let something entirely different in into her heart.

She was no fool, even if the idea of letting go the pain scared her a little when Robin Hood had first show up she thought that maybe she could maintain the pain but keep the love. Because Robin Hood was a piece of her past, past that brought her tears, pain, regrets, and deaths. Robin Hood was a happy ending with bittersweet memories, something that she knew wasn't healthy but she knew that she could have.

Because the idea of another love story was terrifying.

The brunette wasn't a fool, she had felt the connection with the savior in the very moment that Emma had touched her, and she had felt that same connection when the blonde had helped her with the trigger. She had felt, and she had known and the idea of being brave with that kind of happy ending scared her.

No, she wasn't a coward but she didn't know if she was worth a happy ending in which she was truly redeemed. She didn't know if she could be redeemed. If she could truly be happy. And, because of that, she preferred to no acknowledge the truth. A truth that sometimes she thought that Blue knew, that Rumple knew, that everyone knew, the truth that even if both of them didn't talk about it was there.

Emma and her.

Regina didn't want to discover what admitting her love for Emma could be, she didn't want to admit that, to open her heart like this, her heart was black, yes, but also fragile after all the times that she had thought she could be happy.

So when Marion came and her easy, painful solution disappeared Regina felt her emotion for Emma resurface, and the jealousy became almost too strong because Emma was having a happy ending with the pirate, a pirate that didn't seek for redemption, a pirate that didn't realize how precious Emma really was.

So it was easier to hide, to try to search another solution, because the easier solution was scary, much scarier than anything that Regina could have accomplished.

Until something that the ex-mayor hadn't think about it appeared. Another threat.

She remembered how a sudden chill had woken her up, how she felt her body slowly became as cold as ice. She remembered being scared and in an instant of clarity she knew.

The chill, the cold were Emma's.

And then another kind of fear came, the fear of losing Emma, the fear that, after everything she wouldn't, she couldn't ask Emma to leave her alone another time, the fear that that smile and that voice were going to disappear. And maybe was the idea of losing Emma in a way much darker than the wedding type but she knew that even with fear she would do something for Emma, for herself.

So in the solitude of her house she gave all of her own energy, sending it to Emma, feeling her own body starting to tremble and her own thoughts starting to disappear while the cold defeated her body, and suddenly the angst that she was feeling disappeared and though the link that Emma had made without knowing it she felt heat.

And she knew that Emma was alive.

Maybe the idea of Emma being alive was the ultimate push but when later, much much later; she opted to appear in a puff of smoke in Snow's house and she didn't hesitate to search for the blonde. And when a sleepy Snow smiled at her nodded she smiled as well.

She was no fool, she knew what the connection that Emma had made meant, but she also knew something: maybe in her lands true love was easy but here wasn't so she knelt next to Emma, who was still sleeping, and she smiled at the figure, ignoring Snow who was watching them both silently.

- I promise you that you won't die; anything that can happen to you will have to pass over my own frozen heart Emma.

And with that vow she looked at Snow and disappeared, leaving Emma once more.

Fighting for Emma wasn't as scary as losing her forever.

So… that's it. I don't know if I should write another chapter or leave it like this. Any thoughts?