Title : I slam.

Author : J-A-Kd

Summary : Views on the Siddiqui family from 7.21

Note : I feel for Trudi as I can connect with her character in so many stuff but I was disappointed at her reaction at the end of 7.21 so here is what I think needed to be done.

Islam was her religion, deep in the bones and all that stuff. Before, she had steady ideas on how to practice Islam but now there was Finn and Finn was destroying piece by piece every idea she stands for.

Her brother is unhappy and on probation and she fears that he will go back inside. He is not a bad fella, just caught up with the wrong crew and did the stupidest shit ever.

She knows how much he cares about her and her sister. She knows he is a family man but some times all Trudi wants really is to strangle him. It's her brother, her big brother - the protector, the guardian, the listener - so she stands by him no matter what.

It's what family is about. It's what her family is. It's what her views on Islam are about : stand for your religion, stand by your religion. Stand for your family, stand by your family.

She slams her book on the desk and she feels like crying. She just lost her big brother and she used a big word to say her feeling about him. She thinks she doesn't despise him. Just hates him a little nit more than usual but that's normal - they are supposed to hate each other, they are siblings.

She is so mad at him right now, she can't think straight. How dare could he set up Finn ? Doesn't he have any moral ? She puts her hijab on her head, veiling her thoughts.

She calls her sister and they go to the kebab, buying some because God, she needs something with a lot of fat in it. And shortening.

And when she goes outside, she sees him. Her big brother - the moron, the fearless, the protector, the noisy, the listener, the guardian. She sees him, watching them, watching over them, keeping an eye on them and she knows that he checks on them. And she makes a grimace of disdain.

She knows he walks away from them. He goes in the opposite direction and she feels tearing apart inside, wondering why she used such a big word and when she started to be that mad at him. And when she thinks about him and how he walked in the opposite direction, she knows she just lost her big brother. For real this time. And damn, if it doesn't hurt.

Any thought on this little piece of work ?