This story is influenced by things that actually happened, I see Jade being a third wheel and stuff so enjoy.
I walked into the halls of Hollywood Arts and headed straight for my locker and not to look in their direction, I never had the strength to tell her that I loved her more than she could imagine.
She's been dating the new boy from Australia, Thomas. He's a musical god, the way he sings, he can play any instrument and makes everyone fall for him.
Except he stepped on my territory when he flirted with Tori, by the end of the week they were a couple. It made me sick, I pretended to be happy for them when all I felt was a stab in the stomach.
When Beck and I broke up I thought "Here's my chance, go in and ask her" I chickened out and then he moved here.
They left with Tori giggling and intertwining their fingers into each other. Whenever I go to the slap they both have status's about how much they like each other and all the fun they have.
Andre asked us all if we wanted to go to the movies, we all said yes and I sat next to Tori, who sat next to Thomas, the whole fucking movie they made out and made cute giggly faces at each other.
I sat in my room for the night, I was depressed, I knew Tori and I were perfect for each other. We just couldn't be. I grabbed the nearest knife and started to slit my wrists, the blood flowing across my arm made it feel better, after a few hours I passed out.
I missed school for 2 weeks, I was too depressed to go in and see my friends, they don't understand how I feel, they don't understand me.
Eventually Cat came around and saw the cuts, I burst into tears and told her to leave. If I told her she'd hate me.
It had been a month since they started dating and my friends urged me to come back to school and explain what was wrong. Lane even tried to get involved. I just stayed in my room huddled up in a ball.
I grew tired and went into school, people starred at me as I went to my locker, I turned to face her locker and she and Thomas were starring at me, Tori had tears down her face. Thomas mumbled something and walked off, Tori shook her head.
I went over to see what happened, she told him her biggest secret, he had left her
Tori came around to my house to tell me the full story, she said that she told him she was gay and only just came to terms with it, he broke up with her after finding out who she liked.
Me.
The last part isn't true, just most of the story.
I'll continue Big Burden in a few days.