Pretend

Rating: K+

Genre: Angst

Summary: //I'm so tired… Is it okay if I don't smile today?// short drabble, onesided sasunaru

Pairing(s): onesided SasuNaru

WARNING: mild angst

I'm tired of it all… the fake smiles, hollow laughter, the happy face I try so hard to keep up. Is it okay if I don't smile today?

I try to pretend that I'm strong, that your cruel words don't hurt me. It used to work. Not anymore.

You don't need to apologize. I know you don't mean it.

Why doesn't anyone see it? That I'm breaking, day by day. No one bothers to look under the mask, to climb the walls around my heart to see the real me. Why am I hiding?

I just want someone to be here, someone for me to trust, someone who won't hurt me like everyone else. You don't have to know all the answers. I don't want you to save me. I just want you to stay with me.

I was hurt by my precious people. Can you tell? I can't rely on anyone anymore. They'll just stab in the back when I'm not looking. I'm fighting alone, trying to help, but no one appreciates my effort. I train and train and train so hard to protect my precious people. So why is it that they keep turning away from me?

Life is a continuous cycle of nothingness. No one cares, and no one sees me. And I like it that way. That way, their words don't mean as much, don't hurt as much.

I'm not special or anything. Being the Kyuubi jinchuuriki? I'm not him. I'm human too. I get scared.

I'm not as strong as I say. The barrier around my heart breaks down so easily; but every time I build up the wall again, I feel a little stronger.

But now, I feel everything that I have strived for, my hopes and dreams, fading away.

I'm tired of pretending.

Why… why are you doing this?

Do you enjoy my pain?

Do I mean so little to you?

You're the most precious to me. So why do you hurt me so much?

Why…?

Sasuke…

"Are you kidding me? You're weak, deadlast. Why would I consider you my friend? You're nothing but a hindrance in my plan. Now, it's time for you to die."

A/N: first fanfic ever posted! based on the song Stay With Me by Lisa (aozorafantasii).

Kind of weird… what was I thinking when I was writing this… kinda keeping close to the lyrics… pshh… I like it! But then again, that's just me… ^^"

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