One Sweet Day
by Nyna Boscorelli
Disclaimer: I don't own Alex, Carlos, or Ty. Oh, and the song belongs to Mariah Carey and BoyzIIMen.
Author's Note: This is a short song fic from Ty's point of view after Alex dies in the season finale.
*Never had I imagined living without your smile*
I still cannot believe that you're gone. I mean, one minute, you were on top of that car, and the next, you were lying at my feet, dying. Carlos looked up at me when you asked him how you were doing. I think it was then I knew that you weren't going to make it. I wanted to do something, anything, to keep you alive. But there was nothing I could do. Absolutely nothing. I've never felt so helpless in my life - not when my dad died, not when my fellow officer died in my arms, not on September 11th. There was the love of my life, lying on the street dying. I prayed to God that you would smile just one last time and that you would fight death. But you didn't. You just closed your beautiful blue eyes and gave in.
*Sorry I never told you all I wanted to say. Darling I never showed you, assumed you'd always be there*
I wish I could go back in time and do so many things differently. I would have screamed from the rooftops and told everyone that you were my girl. When I got shot and was in the hospital - wow. If I could go back, everything would be different. First of all, I wouldn't have already told my mom about you. But I wouldn't have let go of your hand when she came into the room even if she didn't know. I felt like such an idiot when I saw the hurt in your eyes as you walked out the door. But once you walked out, I couldn't take it back. I couldn't get that moment back.
*And I know you're shining down on me from heaven like so many friends we've lost along the way. And I know eventually we'll be together, one sweet day*
I really miss you, Al. I miss everything about you. You always said that you didn't need anyone to protect you. But I guess you did. Now you're protecting all of us. I bet you look beautiful with wings.
~The End~