The wind was howling that day. That horrid day. The breeze fluttered through the trees and blew the leaves around as I stood there. All I could was stand there, stand there and watch. Everything in me objected to what I was about to do. But I knew what must be done. It all happened so quickly I really don't remember much of it.
I remember hearing, screams and the sound of people crying. I know I saw a girl. Something about her seemed, so familiar, yet so different. And the look that she was giving me. It was almost a disapproving look. Although considering what I had just done, I understand her feelings about all of this.
He had run over too, not realizing at first who I was. Yet when he did, anger and sadness overcame his face. He held onto the girl and tried not to cry. I don't know why he was upset though, he knew it was going to happen, he knew what had to be done.
Both of them, they both tried to keep him back, but he was determined to get through. For not seeing him in over three years, he looked good. Although at the moment I'm quite sure I didn't. I remember him yelling at them. Both of them for letting me go through with this. I tried. I did try to tell him there was nothing they could have done to stop me, but I couldn't seem to get any words out.
I can already tell that your quite confused. So why don't I clarify? My name is Rose Tyler. I was twenty three years old. I say was, because I no longer am. In other words, I'm dead. That was quite blunt wasn't it? Let me finish and I'm quite sure everything will make sense again.
The girl. The girl who gave me the disapproving stare? That was Martha. Martha Jones. After the Doctor left me on Bad Wolf Bay in the other dimension (I won't go into that now as it is quite a long story) he started traveling with her. And the first man? That was Jack. Or as he preferred to be called, Captain Jack Harkness. Captain Jack was amazing. He travelled with the Doctor and I for quite some time until certain things spilt us all apart.
He now works for Torchwood. Although I know I'm not supposed to know about that, under the circumstances I think they will be alright with it. And the last man. That dear man. My Doctor. I never got to tell him why I did it. I never got to even tell him I was back in this dimension. Although I'm sure by now it wouldn't matter. I heard he started traveling with a woman by the name of Donna Noble once Martha stopped going along with him.
Now, have I cleared everything up? Let me see. Martha Jones. Donna Noble. Captain Jack Harkness. The Doctor. I believe that's it, well other than explaining why I am currently bleeding out on the concrete. I want to get one thing straight before I tell you the rest of my story. All of this. Everything that I did? It was for him. All for him. My Doctor. I needed to protect him. And that's exactly what I did.
You're not going to understand at all until you hear me out until the very end. The Doctor is more important to me than life itself. I guess you could say that's the reason I did all of this in the first place. Martha told me what happened in the beginning so I would know all the details before I jumped. Yes. That's how I died. I jumped from my apartment building.
Jack told me I didn't have to do it and if I simply told the Doctor what was going on then he would have taken care of everything. But for once in my life, I wanted to rescue him. He rescued me from my dull life and took me with him to see the stars. All of time and space were at my fingertips when I was with him. It's strange but, before him, I didn't know what life was really about.
Everything started when an old friend of the Doctor's contacted me. When I first heard from them, I truly thought they were friends with the Doctor. I didn't know any better I had never heard him speak of them before. Though the Doctor doesn't like bringing up his old friends, he doesn't like endings. So when they offered me a deal to come back to this dimension, I couldn't pass it up.
I thought I would get to surprise the Doctor and travel with him again. Was I ever wrong! Turns out I was played and because of that, everyone was in danger. I felt the need to take care of it myself so I didn't tell a soul. Martha was the one who found me out. She told me to go straight to the Doctor and when I said no, she offered to help me.
Along the way, we I ran into Jack. I almost gave him a heart attack, although afterword's he was beyond happy to see me. HE was adamant about taking me back to the Doctor for help but I told him I wouldn't do anything stupid. Maybe that's why he was angry when he saw me, I did somewhat lie to him.
Now that you have some of the back story, I will continue on. But first, I want to say that I have no regrets. No regrets whatsoever. Traveling with the doctor was the best thing that had ever happened to me. And nothing will ever changer that. I wouldn't give up having that experience for the world, or any of the worlds for that matter. So Doctor, just know. I love you. I don't have any regrets.