Songfic of 'It Ends Tonight' by The All-American Rejects. These are Harry's thoughts as he walks into the forest to die.
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter, JK does. The song belongs to The All-American Rejects. I am not making any profit from this.
Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.
After all this time, thinking I would fight him, and now I know the truth. It's just so hard, I want to tell them, say goodbye, but I can't.
The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.
All these thoughts, whirling in my head. This is the only way to kill him, to die. I walk past them, I see them in the Great Hall, mourning the dead. For a moment, I almost call out to them, but then I turn away. I have to do this alone.
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.
Tonight, it all ends. Now, at last, after so many years, it ends.
A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain.
I can't explain to him, it's too hard, so I only tell him what he has to know- kill the snake. As I look at him, I see a man, brave and strong, so different from the awkward boy I once knew.
The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.
It's almost as if, with this new burden, an old one is lifted. I don't have to fight anymore, or run, or hide. I only have to walk into the forest.
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
I have faith in them, they will be able to kill him once I do this. To late to fight, it won't do anything, I have to end this, now, alone.
Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes.
Never was I so alone, always I had someone, You, Ron, Hermione, Dumbledore... And now, no one. This is my moment, I must do this alone.
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know.
Merlin, it's so hard not telling you. I wonder, will you know, in the end, what happened? Why I had to do this, leave you.
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
I see mum and dad beside me, and Remus, and Sirius. They give comfort, help me to keep walking, push back the icy fear spreading in my heart.
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
I see him now, his features sharp and pale in the flickering firelight. I look into his eyes, they are cruel and merciless, his pleasure is obvious.
Tonight
Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.
I want it to end now, before I loose the courage, while I can still look into his eyes. I want to run back to you, tell you I love you, that I will never leave you, but I stand here, so alone, and wait for it all to end. His wand is raised, pointed at my head. Then the lips move, and I am no more.