I was bored. My first attempt at Mello X Near and BL in general... Some minor spoilers if you aren't close to the end of Death Note, but I tried hard not to spoil it too much.
Mello hated Near, he made that very clear, right? Right. Wrong. No matter what he said or did, Mello couldn't hide the truth from himself. He loved Near. It was his secret, one which he hadn't shared with anyone. He didn't even tell Matt. He rarely kept anything from Matt, but this was different. This secret was for him and Near alone, he wouldn't risk the chance of their love for anything.
And even in his time of dying, he still loved Near. As he realized the fatal mistake he had made, and as the truck crashed into the side of some building along the country side, he finally said the words he had been afraid to admit all of his life, "I love you Near..."
His last thoughts were sad ones, saying this to himself was not the same as saying it to Near. He had confidence in seemingly everything, if only that had been true. If only he had said this sooner, to the one person it would have really mattered. Even if Near hadn't felt the same way as he did, he could have died with the consolation that he didn't have any regrets in life. To bad. And with his last dying breath, he mumbled another soft, "I love you..." to remind himself one last time of the one thing he could never say to Near, and now would never be able to.
Yes it is short, I'm sorry. Possibly too short. I might write a second chapter with Near's feelings after Mello died.