Rayleigh was training Luffy. He sat as she slept peacefully. She would mutter and get an uncomfortable look on her face every once in a while. He hat fell off her head and a small piece of paper slipped from the red band. He reached down to pick it up. He saw some word scribbled on it.
"Hm? What's this?" He read it. Then he looked at Luffy. "She wrote this?" He looked at her with sympathy.
"Ace... Sabo..." Luffy muttered, a tear falling from her closed eye.
The paper said-
Happiness,
The only feeling expressed when I was with them.
A flash of fire.
The bang of a canon.
And one was gone.
Sadness hung over me like a cloud.
Then the other helped me up.
Serenity,
That would be the big girl word to describe what I felt.
You said you would never leave.
But you left.
I would see you again.
Joy,
I felt joy when I saw you again.
Safe.
Calm.
Secure.
You were there.
Nothing would go wrong.
But.
Like the wind.
You were gone again.
But I would see you again.
Lost,
I was without my nakama.
I was running,
burning,
choking,
falling,
screaming,
crying.
I had to save you.
So close!
I had you!
Your hand was in mine.
We were making our escape.
Fear,
pain,
sorrow.
I saw you defend me.
I saw you die.
Empty,
depressed,
in denial,
giving up.
This is what I feel.
You're gone.
My nakama are scattered.
I lost one brother.
And now the other.
I couldn't protect my nakama.
I could barley protect myself.
And now...
…now I feel alone.