Hey guys! Know it's been awhile since I've posted, well, anything. But life have bitten me in ass (too bad Edward couldn't *sigh*) and I just haven't had the right frame of mind. I am working on my other fanfics ATM but I'm just struggling with it. And for anyone new to my little world, welcome! This came to me in a dream, a very strange, long dream. I'm not sure if I'll even post more than one chapter, but I guess I'll wait and see the response. I apologize that the chapter is a little all over the place, like I said, I've been MIA for quite awhile. Enjoy, and as always be safe :)
My day started off as it usually did. I got up much too early, I had never been a great sleeper, made breakfast for my father and I, did the dishes and headed off to work. I guess you could say my life wasn't all that interesting. It was pretty much the whole groundhog day feeling, seven days a week. Of course it was another gloomy day in good old Forks, WA. I had been living here the last few years. When my mother remarried, I thought it'd be nice to go live with my Dad for awhile. Mom needed to travel and I always felt I was holding her back. Yes, I was a very selfless person. I wouldn't say I hated my life, more that I was bored with it. I had graduated high school in June and I just wasn't sure when and where I wanted to go to College. I sighed heavily to myself as my truck came to a rumbling stop outside of the Newtons store. It wasn't the greatest job on the earth, but it put money into my pocket, and kept Charlie off my back about not getting out enough. It's not that I didn't have any friends, I just prefered to be alone.
"Bella Bo Bella, how was your weekend?!" Mike exclaimed as I came through the door. I forced a slight smile, ignoring the annoying tone to his voice as I pulled my apron and name tag from my back pack. Thankfully Mike had given up on his fascination of me. He was a nice enough boy, cute I suppose, but I just wasn't interested in dating. Seemed over rated and a waste of time to me.
"Same old I guess. Spent most of it in bed reading." I shrugged. He asked this question every Monday morning, and it was always the same answer. I didn't do much outside of work, and while everyone else thought I was a shut in, I found nothing wrong with it in the slightest.
"Well, Jess and I are throwing a going away party for her, she's leaving for school the first week of September and we were really hoping you'd come. It would really mean a lot to both of us."
"Umm, I guess I could." I sighed, trying to keep some of the bordem out of my tone. Jessica and I were never really close, but I knew Angela would be there, and I hadn't seen her in a few months. It might be nice to catch up before she surely left for school. Hell, I'd be the only left here.
"That's great, thanks Bella. It's uh, tomorrow night. Just a small get together, close friends ya know? Short notice I know, but I didn't think you'd say yes, so I never really thought to ask you. My mom said she'd give us the day off and everything. And I know Tuesday is kinda a stupid day to have a party but it's the only day Jess has off and - "
"Woah woah, earth the Mike. It's alright, I'll come. Just name the time and place." I laughed cutting him off. As entertaining as it was to watch him stumble over his words, it was getting kinda annoying. He smiled widely and patted me on the back. It was more of a smack, as if I were choking on something.
"Great Bella, just great! Six tomorrow night at Jessica's!" he danced, trying to go all Saturday Night Fever on me. I shook my head and headed to the back room to ditch my bag.
Work was boring as it normally was. I spent most of my shift stocking the shelves, cleaning the windows and setting up new displays. I found it extremely ironic that someone with two left feet and no sense of balance worked in a sporting goods store. I couldn't even play table tennis.
When I got home Charlie still wasn't there. I tossed my bag to the floor and kicked off my shoes, flicking on the oven as I grabbed from meat from the fridge. Forty-five minutes later, a roast and all the fixings were sitting on the kitchen table, right as my Dad walked in.
"Mmm wow Bells smells great in here. You went all out I see, did you get a raise or are you buttering me up before you ask for a new car?' He chuckled as he hung his belt up by the door.
"I wish, but no, I was just bored and I needed to use most of this stuff up. Plus, there will be plenty of leftovers for tomorrow, I won't be here."
"Oh? Do you have the closing shift?" Charlie assumed as he covered his plate in gravy.
"No um, Mike and Jessica are having a party and I said I'd go." I mumbled as I swirled my fork in my mashed potatoes. Maybe I was a hermit. Maybe I did stay in a lot, but I liked be alone.
"Oh, well umm, that's good Bells, happy to see ya gettin' out there. Just be careful out there, no drinking and driving, though you know you shouldn't be drinking anyway, unless it's with your old man." he laughed patting my arm. I let out a small chuckle and nodded as I took a bite. I kind of regretted my choice in going, I wasn't one for parties or drinking, it took Charlie an arm and a leg just to get me to graduation, but one time wouldn't hurt?
I didn't remember falling asleep, but I was woken by the chime on my cellphone going off. I wasn't even sure why I had one, but Charlie had insisted for emergencies and with the state of my truck, nearly breaking down every trip I made, maybe it was a good idea. I lifted my phone to my face, squinting into the screen.
Hey, glad you're coming today, can't wait to see you! Dress nicely! NO JEANS! :P - Jess
I don't think I own anything other than jeans but I guess I can look, see you later - Bella
I groaned loudly, dragging my fingers down my face. I slung my legs out of the bed and stumbled over my slippers on my way to the bathroom. I showered quick letting the hot water loosen the knots in my neck. Maybe the stress of having to be around a bunch of people was getting to me. I wrapped a towel around myself and padded back to my room. After dumping nearly everything I owned onto my bed, I found a few dresses, that were stuffed into back of my dresser. I didn't remember buying them, so I figured Renee had sent them home with my on my last visit. One was about knee length and covered in a hippy styled floral pattern, that one was a definite no. The other was a tad shorter, a deep sapphire color. With sleeves that came down to just above my elbow and a rounded neck line.
'You'll have to do." I sighed, tossing it on top of my rocking chair. I found some sheer black tights, that also probably came from Mom, and since I didn't own any shoes that weren't sneakers, it looked my black, low top chucks would have to do.
I spent the morning and afternoon doing some cleaning, prepping Charlies dinner and leaving it covered in the fridge. Best to make it easier for him. An hour before I had to leave I slunk up stairs and started to get ready. My hair was impossible, so I just let it hang freely around my face, it curled just enough at the ends to make it look like I gave a crap. I didn't wear make up, but I just put a little brown mascara on to make me look more awake. As soon as I slipped the tights and the dress on, I wanted to change back into my sweats. I felt so phony dressing up like this, but once I pulled my chucks on, I felt more myself.
I drove a little below the speed limit on my way over to Jessica's. My palms were sweaty against the steering wheel and I could feel my heart beating much too fast. What was my deal, honestly. It was just a get together of friends right? Why was I so nervous.
"You've got to be bloody kidding me!" I moaned as I pulled up to Jess's street. I could already hear the music, cars were lined up and down the sidewalks on both sides, in fact some people had taken to parking their cars on the lawns. I squeezed in behind a fancy new SUV and pulled the key out the ignition, putting my head in my hands. Small get together my ass. I could already feel a panic attack building as I tried to slow my breaths. I was never good with crowds. One year when Mom and Charlie had taken me to Disneyland, I spent the few first hours hyperventilating in a bathroom. After a few minutes I pulled myself from my truck, fixed my dress and headed up the street.
"Bella!" Jessica screamed as I got up to the door, that was wide open. I smiled, cringing as she wrapped her arms around me. We were never that great of friends. She always thought me and Mike had a thing in highschool and she was always kinda snobby towards me because of it.
"Hey Jess, congrats on school."
"Oh Bella I am so excited, I mean I'll miss Mike, but it's like my future ya know? I don't wanna stay in this crummy little town my whole life. Oh you're dress is so cute, you look great - HEY Angela, where did you put the Vodka?!"
She took off in the direction of Angela and for that I was grateful, though I was hoping I'd get a chance to see Ang myself. I could definitely call Angela a friend.
The house was packed, from front to back. Alls I could smell was the strong scent of booze, pizza and a miss-mash of different perfumes and cologne. It was making me want to gag. I finally found the back door and headed out to the yard. It was still crowded but at least I could breathe. The cool air helped clear the chaos in my lungs.
"Hey Bella, long time no see, you look terrific!" I heard Angela cry as she pushed her way to me. She held her arms out to me and I had no problem hugging her back. She was such a sweet girl. I wished I had made more of an attempt to hang out with her.
"Thanks Ang, you too. Still working at Starbucks?" I asked as she handed me bottle of Nestea.
"Yes." she sighed heavily. " Hopefully just for the next little while. I sent my application to Harvard last week, so I'm really hoping to make it in for the September semester."
"Wow, Harvard, that's well, impressive. I wish you all the luck." I smiled, hiding my discomfort. I guess I would be the only one left here.
"Thank you Bella, that means a lot, but don't look so glum. I know that look. You'll get outta here just like the rest of us, just don't rush it. Really think what you wanna do. You've got the brains for anything!" She smiled brightly as she pushed her glasses further up her nose.
"There you are hunn." I heard a deep voice, and looked up to see Ben. Wow they were still together, that must be nice for them.
They embraced and shared kiss, I felt the need to look away, it was innocent enough but it felt like a private moment. He whispered something in her ear, and her cheeks turned red. She smacked his shoulder and turned back to me.
"Sorry Bella, but apparently I'm missing the beer bong games and my lovely boyfriend would like to make out in Jessica's room." She laughed freely, I guess she had been drinking.
"By all means, it was so nice to see you. Don't forget about me."
"I would never. Have fun!"
I smiled until she left, and then I let my head fall. I took a sip of my Nestea, suddenly wanting something with a little kick. I never drank. No more than a few glasses of wine or champagne at Christmas or family get togethers, but right now I just needed something to take the edge off. I wandered over to the drink table, surprised to see someone mixing drinks.
"What can I get'cha sweetheart?" a young blonde boy asked. Well I shouldn't say boy, but he couldn't have been older than nineteen. I was surprised Charlie wasn't here knowing everyone was under twenty-one.
"Uhhh." I stuttered, racking my mind for a drink that I thought I could stomach. "Vodka cranberry?" I muttered, I had heard my mother order these at dinner several times. It looked good enough.
"Comin' right up doll." he winked as his hands worked quickly in front of me. "Enjoy, you know where to find me should you want another."
"Thank you." I smiled taking the cold beverage. The glass was quite large, I probably shouldn't go back for seconds. I found a lawn chair and just sat back, looking up at the stars, sipping at my drink. As it got closer and closer to the bottom, I could feel my face and chest start to heart up. My vision was a little muddled and I suddenly really wanted Cheetos.
"Damn light-weight." I muttered, placing my empty glass on the ground beside me.
"Another?" I voice said lightly. I looked up to see the young boy from the bar. I sat up, much too fast, causing a horrible head rush.
"Woah! Umm, thanks. Thank you." I stuttered.
"I'm James by the way, and you're name is beautiful?" he grinned, as he ducked his head to me. I felt the heat come to my cheeks. As much as I wasn't really attracted to this guy, it was very flattering to be called beautiful. That word had never really associated itself with me. James was a decent looking guy. His hair was a sandy blonde, deeper towards the roots. His skin was slightly tanned and his eyes were a very pale blue, almost silver.
"Uh, Bella?" I said and it sounded like a question. He laughed and took a sip of his drink. I copied the motion hoping I wouldn't have to speak again. I was getting drunk, and I didn't want to make a food of myself.
We spent the remainder of the party in the yard. Slowly the people started to thin out, and we were left alone in the yard. I could faintly hear the sound of music playing inside, but my head was pounding. I had thrown back another two drinks in the time we spent chatting. Though I didn't really remember talking.
"Well, it was nice meeting you, but it's late. I should be calling my Dad to pick me up." I got up and lost my balance falling into his arms. Our faces were close and it was making me uncomfortable. I pulled back and he set me on my feet.
"Nonsense. I can give you a ride home. I haven't been drinking."
I thought about it and I would really feel bad calling Charlie at this hour. I nodded and the motion made my head throb even more. He held his arm out and I took it. He lead me to red car. I couldn't make out the model, and opened the passenger door for me. The inside smelled like cigarettes and heavy cologne, I rolled the window down filling the car with fresh cool air. He handed me a bottle of apple juice and I guzzled it down, I felt parched.
"That should clear your head..Let's get this show on the road." He murmured and it sounded like he was talking to himself. The ride was silent. Just the sounds of the news on the radio.
"Another young girls body has been discovered, brining the total up the three in the last month. Police say they are looking for a serial killer." The womans voice muttered. The story made me remember a conversation Charlie had with Billy last week. But my brain wasn't awake enough to remember details. James shut off the radio and gripped his hands tightly on the wheel.
"Are you ok?" I asked hesitantly, he looked angry.
"Fine."
I brought my eyes back in front of me, confused at what I saw. We had pulled up to small cabin, just off the highway. It looked like one of the small hunters cabins I had been to with my Dad when I was kid.
"Um, what's this?" I slurred, suddenly a wave of lethargy washing over me. I could feel myself getting dizzy. My eyelids wanted to close.
"You'll see." he smiled darkly as his fist came to contact with my temple.
I awoke slowly, my eyes burning as a bright light shone down into them.
"Ahh my beautiful little Bella, you've awoken." James deep voice boomed in my ear. I tried to sit up, but something wasn't right. I looked up to see my arms bound to metal bars, my feet were unmovable as well.
"What the, you let me the hell go, my father is Chief of Police!" I screamed, my words slurred. I pulled on the ties that bound me, but all it did was dig into my skin.
"Oh I know Miss. Swan. I've been watching you for sometime. You'll be my greatest achievement. The Chief's daughter? And oh so pretty." He laughed, running his hands through my hair. I pulled my head back moaning as the pain shot across my forehead.
"Mmm, I love the sounds you make Isabelle." He grunted as his sick hands ran across my body. My dress had been cut away, leaving me in my bra, panties and tights. My eyes filled with tears as the realization of what was happening to me and who it was happening with. I started to scream just as his lips covered mine. His breath blew into me and it tasted of smoke and beer. I bite down hard on his lower lip and he moaned. His blood leaked into my mouth and I pushed against him, trying to catch my breath. I spat in his face and he laughed.
"Ooh, I like you my Belle. So feisty, I bet you'll like it rough..."
His body was suddenly on top of me and I could feel how turned on he was. I felt like I was going to puke. His hands snaked around my neck as he ground himself into my center. I was crying, crying so hard. No for the pain I was in, no because I surely knew I was going to die, but for the pain this was going to cause Charlie and my Mom. I was never one to pray but in my last moments I did. I prayed that Charlie and Renee had the strength to get through my death, that this sick, sadistic man would be caught and brought to justice and that sweet death would come to me quickly before this man invaded my body further.
"Scream, I want to hear how bad it hurts you." he uttered, pressing hard on my throat. I could feel my life slipping, I could feel my heartbeat getting shallower. I love you Dad, I love you Mom. I thought to myself as the darkness started to claim me..
I must of been dead. I felt like I was flying. Wind was passing over my body. I was floating. So this is what going to heaven felt like.
"Bella can you hear me?" a heavenly voice sang, a sweet scent waffted over my nose. Making my head swim even more.
"Oh god, we were too late weren't we?" the Angels voice sung again. It was hung with such remorse and sadness I wanted to cry. I wanted to tell the Angel that it was okay, that everything was okay. That I was here to be at peace.
"She's going to fine, don't you see?" another voice that sounded like ringing bells said, and it was directly beside me. I took in a deep breath, the air was no longer rushing around me, I could feel something some beneath me, clouds maybe?
"You need to open your eyes Bella, please, for me?" the Angel said, and my heart lurched in my chest. I could hear my pulse in my ears and my chest felt like it was on fire. Is this what happened when you died? Angels would save you and guide you to heaven, to wake you from your eternal slumber and welcome you to the spirit in the sky?
I slowly got hold of my body, ooh ow that hurt, I though as I moved my legs. I took in another breath and my chest felt like someone had used it for a punching bag.
"That's it Bella. You're safe. I'm here." There was that voice again. Maybe he was my Angel, my guiding light. I finally found the muscles I needed to open my eyes. It burned, horribly. I was in a small room, everything was white. I looked down at myself. I was covered in blood. From what I could see with my blurry vision I was in a mens white, button down shirt. the blood had stained it in several places.
"Oh god. You're awake, you're going to be fine." My angel voice cheered. The voice was smooth as honey, and the breath that hit my face made me euphoric. Made my mouth water. I tilted my head to the sound and I felt my heart stop in my chest. The face staring back at me, could only be that of an angel. Smooth, white, alabaster skin, hair in disarray in the color of warm copper. A long slender nose and angular jaw. And finally the eyes. Oh the eyes of a god. Liquid gold, lined with black. I felt a breath catch in my throat. I wanted to speak but words were beyond me.
"Hello Bella, I've been waiting for you. My name is Edward Cullen."
Dum dum duhhh! Well, that's all she wrote for the moment! I have a little more written, but I'm honestly not sure how I feel about this! Please for the love of Twilight, let me know how you guys feel about this. My dream wasn't obviously this long, but the outline was there haha. Please review or PM me and let me know if you think I should post more. I'm on the fence about it! Thanks for reading :)