I just stared at the picture of my boyfriend. He was gone. My Alvin was gone. I still remember all we did together, all the secrets we kept. I told him things I never even told my sisters. But that was because I trusted him and he trusted me. I still remember when I heard the news of his death.
Flashback. October 9th 2004
"Brittany hurry up! I really need to go!" Eleanor said.
"Eleanor I've only been in here for 10 minutes!" I snapped. Gosh.
"But I really need to use the bathroom!" I rolled my eyes when I heard my sister say that. "fine." I said. I unlocked the door and stepped out of the bathroom. "Thank you." Eleanor said.
I said nothing I just ran downstairs. When I was downstairs I saw my sister Jeanette hugging Mrs. Miller tears both coming down their eyes. "What's wrong?" I asked.
"A-A-Alvin's dead!" Jeanette cried. The second she said those words my heart stopped. My boyfriend was dead. I looked at the TV that was playing the news. The headline was Alvin Seville shot three times.
Flashback Over
That was day I became depressed and empty. I remember after the shooting Simon moved in with us because Dave was moving and Simon didn't want to change schools, and of course Mrs. Miller happily took the nerd in.
I sighed as I felt hot salty tears go down my eyes. I started crying again. "Dam it!" I screamed to the air "Why did you do this to me God!" I screamed. I was so angry I kicked my books off my desk.
I covered my face and sobbed. I just can't live like this anymore. I've been like this for 7 months, I just can't live anymore.
I turned into someone I thought I would never become. I slit my wrists, do drugs to try to numb the pain. But nothing works.
I walked downstairs to the kitchen, no one was home. Jeanette went to a book fair, Eleanor was at her soccer game, and Mrs. Miller was at the store. Simon, I had no idea where he was. I sighed as my hands trembled as I picked up a knife. "It all ends here." I said quietly to myself "I love you Eleanor, I love you Jeanette. And I adore you Mrs. Miller. I just can't do this anymore." I felt my hands start to sweat. I put the blade by my heart and just when I was about to slash it threw my body, I heard a voice. "Alvin wouldn't want this Brittany." I turned around to see Simon's dark blue eyes stare at me. "What?" I said.
"He wouldn't want you to kill yourself. Do you thing he wants you to be running around doing drugs and slitting you're wrists?" Simon asked. I saw Simon switch on the kitchen lights and step closer to me. "He always said if he died he wanted me to make sure you didn't do anything stupid." Simon said. I didn't move I just said quietly "You don't understand what I'm feeling right now."
"I do." Simon said "He's my brother. He was dumb, cocky, sometimes a ass, but I love him. He's still my brother."
"I know. But you don't understand the numbness I just want to end this nightmare called life." I said more like I was talking to myself.
"You're being selfish, just think about Eleanor, Jeanette, and Mrs. Miller. Did you even think of what you would put them threw?" Simon asked me gently but firmly.
"No." I said quietly "But I can't do this anymore. I just can't be alone anymore."
"You don't have to be alone." Simon said smiling at me.
I gave him a hug and we just stayed that way for a very long time. Recovering from this will be easy, as long as I have my Wise Friend.
Well that was just a quick one-shot. I'm sorry if there's any grammar errors... I'll post the next Obsession chapter really soon:) Same for Recovery and Music... Please Review! Please please please Review!