Chapter 1: The Talk
Bella's POV
"Don't be ridiculous, Bella," Edward countered.
My boyfriend Edward and I were once again having a discussion-turned-argument about the subject that I now frequently brought up just to see if he had changed his mind. He hadn't. You see, since he is a vampire and I am just a boring, lowly human, he refuses to do anything that could cause him to hurt me and that included the current subject.
"But Edward!" I tried out my whiney five-year-old voice, though I knew it would get me no where.
Oh great. Stern face, I hated the stern face because once you see it you know that's as far as your going to get. "Bella, I have made my opinion on this very clear, have I not?"
"Bella?" there was a long pause. "Bella, say something."
"I don't think I have anything else to say" I replied smugly. If he was going to be stubborn, then so was I.
"Ah, Bella. I've told you, it's too risky."
"Edward Cullen! How many times do I have to tell you? I don't care about the risk. This was my one request for you. You had so many. You finally got your biggest to come true. I'm wearing your ring aren't I?" wow, I felt a huge weight lift off of my shoulders, but another just fell into its place. I had never yelled at him like that before, and from the look on his face he was completely taken aback by my sudden outburst.
"Bella, love, I know that you didn't want to wear the ring yet….."
"No Edward I d-." he cut me off before I could finish.
"I know that you didn't really want to wear it yet, but you are and I am very thankful for that. I want you to know that it's not that I don't want to do this, Bella. It's just that, it is too risky. We're already risking so much just being together. I love you and I don't want to hurt you. Imagine how I would feel if anything happened to you. I could crush you, Bella!" the way he said the word almost made me shiver.
Just thinking about how strong he was and how easily he really could crush me made me a little uneasy. I had never been nervously aware of it before, of how different he was. I mean, of course I knew that we were both so different from one another but now that we had been together so long, it wasn't something that I thought about all the time. But by the look on my angel's face, I could tell that our difference was something that he thought about often.
"It's just that I love you so much! I want to be with you in every way that I can. I'm done being careful, Edward, we're getting married in a month!"
I didn't dare meet his eyes because I knew that if I did, I would lose all ability to speak and therefore lose any chance I had of actually winning this argument. (Though my chances were already very slim)
"Oh, Bella. I love you too. You have no idea how much I love you! But I have to be careful…..we have to be careful. It's too dangerous. I promise, once we're married we'll try. Do you even know how hard that is for me say to you? Just because we're married won't mean that you're invincible, love. If it were completely up to me, I would wait until after you were changed because then we wouldn't have to worry anymore." The pain in his face was obvious though his voice was level and calm.