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-=-=-=-=-=-=- -=-=-=-=-=-=-Chapter One-=-=-=-=-=-=- -=-=-=-=-=-=-

The case had ended, it was over, another one signed off, another arrangement of families a member down, another bad guy gone from the world. However, it didn't give closure to those fighting.

Penelope knew that Derek was affected again, he always was, a child case always hit too close to home turf for his liking and only those within the team and the big bosses knew about his past and that was the way it would stay. So it was no surprise that, that night she would wait at home for them to go to their places before she would call Derek when he texted her with a heads up text he was home at last.

Kevin fidgeted, he knew what was coming and he almost exuded angst when her phone went off. "Morgan again?" He asked bitterly.

Penelope knew the drill by now, it was the same ol' same old. "Yeah, it got to us all."

"But of course, Morgan got it worse" He chortled sarcastically as his girlfriend stood up, huffing as she went. He listened to her as she rang him.

"You okay handsome?" She asked softly, her concern dripping from every note in the sentence. "Right, I'll be right there. Nonsense, I'm on my way." She put her phone down.

"Penny, you cannot seriously be running to him." Kevin asked her as he stood up and watched her pull on her shoes. "He's a grown man, one that gets any girl he wants and he goes for a taken one."

"Sexual gratification and a shoulder to cry on are two totally different things honey, you know that."

"Obviously not. I keep myself to one woman and you know I don't cry." He said as he bragged about it, Penelope rolled her eyes. He watched her proceed to leave and he watched in disbelief. "That's it then, no 'Kev you don't mind do you?' You just chuck your life away for that over grown doofus?"

"Calm it before I get home or don't be here at all." Penelope bit back, her tone saying she was not up for any of his pettiness because the truth was she was done with it.

Derek didn't want to believe he possessed a hold on Penelope, he just wanted someone to talk to and to ring his mom would not only cause her concern but would ruin her nerves altogether. With Penelope he could cry if he needed to, he could laugh if it was necessary, he could be him.

He loved his best friend but seeing her so happy with her relationship to Kevin made him happier. He wanted her to be happy, she deserved it but because she was in a steady relationship would never change how he felt for her and he would never lose his part in being a constant in her life. Best friend's didn't do that, they waited around for the shoe to finally drop in whatever area was causing a problem.

Hearing her voice was one thing that settled him, it had a calming effect on him, one he loved endlessly. He knew a few years back he would die if she was taken from him and he'd almost had to do that. He chose to keep that moment sacred in his heart; he chose to keep with him the feeling of dread of what life would be like had she really died that night. She would never know that but he would. It was reasons for that he ran to her, to make sure she was still around. Again it happened with a case a few weeks back, she'd witnessed a murder, almost because the next victim and he'd been stuck in a room with her. That wasn't the bad thing, the bad thing was the feeling of dread in his stomach that bubbled as he'd watched her all night to make sure she was safe.

He felt some ease come to him as there was a wrap on the door and her soft voice came through it alerting she was there.

He just opened the door to be pulled into her arms.

Kevin was still at her home when Penelope got back, it was rounding off to 2am, she was exhausted, physically, mentally and emotionally. She'd cried with him, she'd soothed him and she'd made sure he was 100% settled when she left.

Walking in she saw the aggression leaving Kevin's body and she let her shoulders slump. "I thought I said if you couldn't calm it to not be here when I got back?"

"Well I decided for once I was fed up for being put on the back burner."

"The back burner? Kevin I'm tired, I just want to sleep." She said exasperated as she made her way in but Kevin stood in her way. "Kevin..."

"If Morgan rang right now, you'd run around to him and make thing everything pretty again. Well for that reason we're doing this now." He watched her for a reaction. "I'm fed up of coming second to your team."

"You knew from day one how my life worked."

"Yeah two years ago, things progress and adapt."

"My family remain number one." That floored Kevin; he wasn't classed as her family? "You are my boyfriend, and as much as I love you, there's nothing keeping you here so either you love my way of life or hate it. That's your choice not mine."

"I've stuck around through whatever but he calls and you run."

"You have no idea what made us like this do you? No clue whatsoever."

"Well clarify it for me."

"No." She stood defiant to her claim. "It's none of your business and I shouldn't have to."

"Just tell the guy you want to fuck him and make everyone's life a little bit easier eh?"

"Excuse me?"

"Word in the tech pool's always been how you fancy Agent Morgan. Then I got you." He could read the visible shock. "I thought I could change that."

"Something's aren't meant to be changed."

"Obviously not, thing is, there can't be anything in life that makes him so fucking important for you to just drop life with your boyfriend of two years. It's a case, he chose the job, like you did, you all live through the cases and still I have a hard time believing that the big strong womanizer has it worse."

"Some people handle things differently."

"It's Derek Morgan, Penelope! The man drops woman like he takes in air, he should be man enough to deal with a case, children or adults."

"He was abused as a child okay?" Penelope finally blew; she knew this chat was coming. "FYI Kevin, people grow up differently, not all of us had plush lifestyles like you with mommy and daddy giving us everything we wanted, as and when we wanted it. Some of us grew up in the bad areas of our towns and had unthinkable things happen to us. I vowed I would never tell a soul what happened to him but you, and you insensitivity, needed that! Satisfied?"

"Penny I didn't realise."

"No you didn't, you just never think do you?' She said her tone low and anger filled. "Get out Kevin, take your stuff and leave my apartment now. I've had enough of living through this relationship for the sake of it. Hoping one day it might resume its romance and happiness."

"Don't do this."

"I'm done Kevin, well and truly done." She told him, her tone was completely emotionless, she was certain this was the right choice.

"I hope you can live with losing your life to a man that'll never love you." Kevin said as he grabbed the majority of his things and left her alone in her apartment.

Penelope just stood there too exhausted to react in that moment.

She just hoped Derek would do for her what she so willingly did for him.

A.N: This idea came to me when I was listening to a song, I was gonna use the lyrics but found a new idea that fitted better! ... This won't be that long of a story! That I can promise, maybe two/three chapts!

Lemme know what you think!