Summary:
Loras thinks about Renly before he marrys Sansa...or does he? Bitter sweet
Notes:
Not finished just putting a little bit out there and seeing what y'all think and if I should continue it... I don't own any of the characters and Renly owns Loras XD Also I used some qoutes from the books and show.
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Chapter 1: Chapter 1 Memories
Summary:
Loras is to marry Sansa but he's still hunted by his true love Renly which is why he can't move on not that he wants to
Loras stared at himself in the tall body length mirror his curly blonde hair in tangles that seemed would never come undone, he rubbed the dark,purple circles under his eyes, stubble grew on his chin as little as it was. He had tried his best to sleep but he couldn't images of Renly's cold, lifeless body in his arms still fresh in his mind as if it happened that night. He reached out to the desk next to it stroking the brest plate of Renly's his eyes softened his fingers caressed the cold metal the stag on the top. Ever sense Renly died his heart seemed to not beat right he barely slept and he got headaches from holding in tears. Loras went and sat on the huge bed mindlessly rubbing the sheets he could still smell the faint smell of Renly on them which was a comforting thought. Loras tried to keep up apearences with his family and the girl he was suppose to marry Sansa but some times it hurt to get up like a wave of darkness crashing over him forcing him not to move he would burry his face in the warm pillow. Just sob till no tears would come out nothing more to offer but his body would still shake and cringe. Loras could no longer enjoy the sunset because he use to watch it with Renly as they held eachother close talking about nothing and everything meaningful and useless but Loras remembered every word Renly said and absorbed it like it was the last thing Renly would ever say. The rose took a deep breath and slowly exhaled through his nose he stood going to the window looking out it over highgarden and as his mind wandered he imagened a warm clear spring day with Renly.
"Come on Loras" Renly said his horses hooves pounding hard on the ground as he rode faster passing the smiling Rose. "Slow poke" Renly yelled laughing carelessly looking back Loras narrowed his eyes with a smile on his face charging his horse ahead of Renly they rode faster and faster as they neared the place Renly wanted to show him and as they neared Loras and Renly were neck and neck. Loras smirked and tackled Renly on to the soft forest floor into the field of flowers pinks and reds and purples surrounded them. Loras stared into brown beautiful eyes he tussled Renly's short brown hair tracing Renly's hairy,thick mustache. Renly laughed as he rolled over Loras but Loras rolled over him on the ground till the Rose sat up stradling a pinned down Renly. "Looks like I pinned a hansome Stag" Loras muttered against Renly's soft lips before kissing him deeply and fully a gentle, lingering touch of the lips...a hesitation on both parts as they touch as if both are taking the time to memorize the feeling before they parted. "I love you my knight of Flowers" Renly muttered softly "I' ll tell you why I love you Renly..." Loras said softly hesitating "You give me hope when life pulls me down you taught me how to love for you I live and have the need to protect you I love you because you are caring I love you because you made me what I am your Knight of Flowers"
Loras stared off into the distance as he remebered the place where he burried Renly a place no one would find his bottom lip quivered, his eyes stung and reddened as silent tears fell down his flushed cheeks his shoulders shook violently he leaned against the stone wall using his arm as support trying not to fall apart. His head resting on the cool stone wall "It's all my fault" he gasped out as he tried to calm down. He rubbed the bridge of his nose as he started getting a was his everything his stars, his moon, his sun, his Stag and he was ripped from him and he couldn't do a goddamn thing about it. That was what hurt him the most he blamed himself for what happened if he never would have made Renly want to be king put the idea in his head it wouldn't have happened his Renly would still be there in his arms holding him tight telling him to fight. To be perfectly honest he felt the need to no longer live he didn't want to live Margaery had to talk with him late at night when he felt as if he would end his life but she reminded him of his promise of revenge but sometimes that wouldn't even rekindle the raging fire that he once felt inside him for Stannis after what happened when all Loras wanted was to be with Renly in his arms as he stroked Loras' curls forever. Loras cleared his throat sniffling as he heard the door open...
Notes:
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