"I'm kind of in need for some advice on something."
God I shouldn't be asking anyone for help on this! Hell I shouldn't even be thinking of a possibity of this but I am and I'm not sure if I want these feelings to stop. The vibrating of my phone woke me out of my thoughts.
"I'm all ears." Bonnie replied.
"So I have a crush… Well more than a crush I guess it could be called an infatuation on these two people. And… I don't know which one I should choose I mean one of them has all of these great characteristics he's caring, sweet, and he wants to protect me."
"What about the other guy?"
"He's just got this protective side to him with people that he trust and the times we've been together it's like my emotions go haywire but when he touches me I feel safe in his arms. But then my common sense comes into the picture and I panic he gives me what I want without me having to verbally say it. And I don't know how to handle that."
"Geez Elena you really don't have an easy life huh? If this were a typical thing I would probably say something like who do you like more or you have history with the first one more than the other guy. Both of those things would be bullshit to say."
I couldn't help but chuckle at her text I'm glad that I went to her instead of Caroline. I love them both dearly but if I went to Caroline she would have said things like I'm crazy and I would be left feeling horrible about myself. And I can't let myself feel like that I'm tired of feeling like that.
"No I don't I'm starting to think that karma has it out for me or some evil omen like that. So what is it that you want to tell me since I know it would be either of those things?"
It felt like hours before Bonnie responded to me. If I would have called or talked to her in person would this still be her reaction? Would the awkwardness be hard to handle?
"You're my friend no matter what we've been through, or how many times that we've fought my concern doesn't disappear. I'm not going to pretend and say that I know what you're going through because I don't; I'm not one of those people that can like more than one person but I also won't tell you that what your feeling is wrong because you know how you feel and they've got to be pretty special for you to like them the way that you do. My advice to you is tell them it doesn't need to be now or tomorrow but don't wait too long because, we battle vampires practically every day and never know if we'll come out of it dead or alive and we need to live everyday like it's our last."
"Thank you Bonnie, I'm so lucky to have such a great friend like you in my life and your right I can't wait until the right time because it feels like in an instant it goes from happiness to another attacker after us. And I push back what I want to say or do and make it go away. So thank you for knocking the sense in me that I needed."
"What are friends for if not to tell you like it is? Yea it is pretty messed up how that works doesn't it? I also cherish our friendship as well, well I'll leave you to your thoughts if you need to talk again I have no problem with driving to your house or meeting up at the grill and talking."
"Yea texting isn't my favorite hobby either have a nice day!"
God I feel like if Damon were here he would probably say something Damon like and chuckle at me being in distress. Why am I subconsciously making a list of people that won't forgive me for this? Why do I even care about those people? Yea there my friends and family but it's my life and these are my feelings so adding that pressure on me is completely stupid. But that's easier said than done.
I closed my eyes for a few seconds and let my mind drift thinking about the Salvatore brothers. If only they were here know I need some one to say that everything will be alright and for someone make my brain turn to mush because they know my weak spots.