The Lump in My Throat is the Thump in My Heart
-Extended Thought-
There is this funny feeling, I can't put my finger on it. It swells within me and never fully dies. I don't know how to combat it, since I've never felt it before. I need his help, but he's gone and they told me that he'll never return. So what should I do? I can't sit here forever. But I can't turn away from the golden sunset either.
The sky just reminds me of him, his red fiery hair and glowing skin. He seemed to amplify the twilight. When I looked at him it exhilarated me, and it made my chest tighten with a strange and wonderful feeling when his emerald eyes glanced back at me. He laughed all the time and I can't remember a melody any sweeter.
I don't understand how he could fade away so quickly. I haven't been in existence for very long but he was my tomorrow. He was what helped me get through my missions and my days in general. Without him I can only float through time like a ghost.
I shouldn't be feeling this, should I? After all, I shouldn't even be feeling anything. But if that's true then why is my throat in a knot? My eyes are longing to see him and I want to hear his voice again.
Friends. He was my friend. That must be it. I… am confused with myself. Why can't I forget about him like everyone else does? I wish I could fade away alongside him. He probably would want me to continue to exist though, so I will because I don't know what else to do.
I'm tired, I think about him every day and night and everyone notices it. Last night drops of water fell out of my eyes. The drops rolled into my mouth. They tasted a lot like the sea salt ice cream we shared everyday at this clock tower. Demyx says that water is good for people, but these water drops only burn me as if they were his flames.
I want him to come back like he said he would before he left. I want to share to this golden sunlight with him and laugh at his silly jokes again. I want him to make me feel whole like he did before. I thought that I was alive but now I just feel dead.
Please come back Axel. I need to tell you everything that I don't think I'll ever be able to actually say.
Author's Notes: I did not include Xion, as you can see. This is because I felt that if I did include her it would ruin the mood I was going for.