Okay, here I am with another Code Lyoko fanfiction starring William Dunbar in his sexy glory. I've been working hard on this story as well as a few others! Hope you like!
Disclaimer: I do not own Code Lyoko at all. I am not affiliated with the it in any way. All rights belong to Thomas Romain, Tania Palumbo, and Moonscoop. I don't intend of making any sort of profit on this. I merely write this for fun. The only thing I do own is my OCs but that's it. Thank you for understanding.
Chapter 1: Heartbreak
William Dunbar stood outside the grounds of Kadic Academy by himself. He looked at the surroundings and he saw everything suited his solemn mood. It was nighttime but the sky was filled with dark clouds like a void of blackness, the wind became icy to where it was painful like a stab to a vital organ, it was so cold like a resentful hatred, and it aura about him was like an eternal depression. There wasn't a soul in sight, leaving him all alone. Everyone else was snugged up in bed, warm and asleep, but he was walking about on a winter's night. Nevertheless, he walked on. He walked until he found a bench and sat down. A moment after he sat down, the rain began falling hard. He was getting soaked, but he didn't care. As the rain hit him, it felt like needles stinging his skin. The rain slid down his cheeks as if they were his own tears. He clenched his teeth, gripped his shit with his hands, and his head went down. Tears were attempting to fall, but he still made a valiant effort to hide them from the outside world. "The rain is the tears I can't cry." He softly said to himself.
The past couple weeks had been agonizing for him. A few days ago, he returned back to Earth after a few months of him being possessed by XANA on Lyoko against his own will. When he first returned, he was in almost in a daze and in a blur, unaware of how much time had passed. Oh how he wished that he had stayed in that delusion. But the reality came crashing down on him like a ton of bricks.
It all came back to him. He remembered going to Lyoko for the first time with Aelita on a mission to protect the core of Lyoko. He then got separated from her and then monster appeared, attacking him. He later learned that due to his arrogance, he got possessed by XANA and was gone for months. While he was possessed he had tried to kill his friends several times. In order not to cause suspicion, Jeremie had to make a clone of him, but that clone ended up being the class idiot. Because of that clone, his parents ended up really worrying about him because he wasn't the same William. It also made his classmates question his sanity and intelligence, causing him to become subjected to bullying. Everyone started to push him away.
Every night, nightmares of the times he was possessed by XANA haunted him like a demon. There were nights where he'd even wake up crying softly to himself. But he'd never admit that to anyone.
But worst of all, he was told by Yumi that he couldn't be trusted anymore and then they all began ignoring him. He was rejected by the love of his life and the closest people he could call friends. All they do is ignore him now.
To them, he was nothing more than an annoyance. Like a thorn in your side that you couldn't pull out.
William would hear Ulrich talking to the gang about how much he royally screwed up. Ulrich talked so much shit about him that it made William have the urge to go up to Ulrich and want to punch his lights out. They never really liked each other much from the get go, mostly because they both liked Yumi.
Odd teased William as well, treating everything like a big joke. He'd often make jokes at William's expense, Ulrich laughing along with him. But then again, Odd barely ever took anything seriously.
Jeremie was a little different. He didn't blatantly talk down to William directly, but he seemed reluctant to the idea of giving him a second chance all the same. William's best guess was that Jeremie just didn't want to get involved in all that drama or have history repeat himself.
Aelita seemed like she still wanted to William's friend and she felt sympathy for him. But it seems like she feels pressured to keep quiet by her friends. She wanted everyone to get along.
But of course, it was the rejection by Yumi that hurt the most of all. She was the love of his life, but she left him in the dust. He loved her with all of his heart, but he felt like she tossed him aside like trash.
He knew very well that his overconfidence is what screwed him over. But he didn't think that things would have taken such a bad turn.
He just wanted to prove to them that he, too, could be of use to them as a Lyoko Warrior.
It hurt him more than words could say. Not that he could ever tell anyone that.
But the only person he could blame was himself.
"Excuse me, William, but what are doing out in this?" A female voice asked softly, snapping him out of his thoughts.
He turned to see a girl with lily white skin, dark blue eyes that looked like the night sky, long waist-length ebony hair with long tapered bangs that framed her face, and a curvy yet chubby build. She wore a long sleeved knee-length black dress, black leggings under the dress, and black boots. She didn't carry an umbrella, so her clothes were getting soaked, just like his. He recognized this girl to be Kandadara.
To him and everyone else at Kadic, Kandadara was a girl shrouded in mystery. People barely knew anything about her, though they had a tendency to describe her as dark.
William only knew a little about Kandadara. She was often described as negative, pessimistic, sad, depressed, withdrawn, mysterious, shy, secretive, dark, and just flat out weird. But he knew she was just very misunderstood. She was also was sweet and kind than anyone she knew, even to the point to where she was a doormat. Perhaps she was way too nice for her own good, much like Aelita in that regard. But no one else could see who she really is. But William knew that she was a very good person. He could feel it down to his soul.
He didn't know how he knew, but he could tell that she held a lot of sadness and secrets locked away within herself, unable to tell a soul.
She was the very definition of the phrase 'still water runs deep'.
William eyed her eyes closely, trying to read what she thinking. After all, the eyes were the window to the soul. Their eyes met only for a moment, but she nervously looked away from him. A rosy blush crept across her face and she started fidgeting with her wet clothes. In that moment he looked into her dark blue eyes, he saw a great sadness. A sadness that even he couldn't understand. Why was she so sad? William said in a serious tone, "I could ask you the same thing."
Kandadara didn't make any eye contact with him at all, making William wonder about what she had on her mind. She said, sounding unsure of what to say, "I suppose you could..."
But this was one of the days where William didn't want to be bothered by anyone. He was heartbroken and devastated. He couldn't bear the thought of getting close to anyone at this point in time. He was afraid he'd get hurt again. Being the stubborn guy he was, he wanted to deal with the burden alone.
So he decided to push her (as well everyone else) away in any and every way he could.
"So what do you want?" He asked, sounding really annoyed.
For a few moments, there was no words spoken. The atmosphere became almost unbearably awkward. The intense silence almost intimidated her. Normally she enjoyed peace and quiet, but this was an exception.
Unable to stand it, she forced herself to say something. She said gently, "I just wanted to see if you were okay..." But of course, all she had to do was see the expression on his face and his dark aura to know her answer. She knew that answer to that in a heartbeat. He wasnot okay.
He had changed drastically over the course of a few months. When they first met, she was instantly attracted to how handsome he was. She later learned his personality was just as good as his looks. He was sweet, kind, romantic, mysterious, charismatic, handsome, and a little rebellious. Out of any guy at Kadic, he was the kindest to her. He encouraged her, comforted her when she was down, and stood up for her. He made her blush fire when he was near her. He made her heart beat faster and harder when he merely passed by her. When he came around, she always got butterflies in her stomach. Just thinking about him made her happy. She felt like he was the light in her darkness. Over the months, she slowly began to fall in love with him.
Kandadara knew he loved Yumi, but she could see that Yumi didn't feel the same way about him. Yumi's heart was set on Ulrich and the feeling was mutual. In fact, everyone in Kadic knows that they like each other, but it was like they themselves couldn't see that.
At first, Yumi seemed to like his company and it even seemed like she liked him, much to Kandadara's distaste. But of course, when Ulrich came into play, Yumi began pushing him away. Yumi and her gang of friends always disappeared off somewhere, making William suspicious.
After that, they all became friends for a short time, but that wasn't to last. William had suddenly disappeared without a single trace, which at the time, scared her, fearing something bad had happened to him. She had later heard that he just went on an overseas trip and then got the flu. But even so, why didn't he tell anymore?
But when he came back, he was way different. He acted like the class clown even though she had known William to be smarter than that. He took every figure of speech literally. Everyone thought he had lost his mind.
After the whole oddball phase, just a couple weeks ago he changed for the worst. He had dark circles under her eyes and they were shadowed with fatigue, as if he was having nightmares. His skin had turned pale and ashen, as if he was ill. He also looked thinner and frailer, as if he was barely eating. He also so seemed aged and world weary, like the life had been sucked out of him. What happened to him?
He seemed very depressed as of late. He started acting ice cold and lemon sour, as if deliberately isolating himself away from everyone else. He just wasn't the same anymore.
The William that stood before her wasn't the same William knew and loved. In fact, she could barely recognize him anymore.
William looked at her with cold and icy eyes, a look that he never gave her before. But nowadays, this look was one of the looks William gave to everyone. He said, irritated, "Why do you care?"
She knew he wanted to be left alone, but if she did, her heart wouldn't let her live it down. "I just wanted to help you..." She spoke softly in almost a whisper.
"It's not your business!" He said bitterly, raising his voice.
"B-But I..." She squeaked out.
"Just leave me alone!" William shouted at her in all the anger he had held in. He stormed up from the bench and jumped at her, roughly grabbing her wrists. The force of all of this pushed them to the hard ground with him dominating over her.
In the same instant, the weather only got worse. Lightning flashed and thunder roared in the sky. The weather only increased in its intensity in every way.
"W-William...that hurts..." She struggled and tried to get free from his strong grip, but failed. Tears began overflowing out of her dark blue eyes and rolled down her face like the Nile River. Her body was trembling like an earthquake and she was scared out of her wits. Her whole body began aching a stinging pain. She felt paralyzed because she was hurting so much she couldn't move without bringing on even more pain.
But somehow, even in the midst of all of it, she couldn't blame him for it.
She wanted to help him. She wanted to save him, if she could.
"Why do you care so much?" He demanded angrily.
William was surprised by his own outburst and actions. He had not expected that he'd do such a thing.
"Because...I know you're a good guy..." She replied, feeling only a little hope in her heart. It was only a little, but it was enough to where she believed.
His face softened a little. He desperately wanted to believe her words, but it seemed all too hopeless.
"You're too late..." He murmured. "I'm not anymore."
He was well aware of her feelings towards him, but he didn't know what to make of them.
He knew deep down that some part of him wanted to let her in but another part didn't, so he couldn't bring himself too. At this time, he was afraid of letting anyone else in, so he tried harder to push her away.
"The William you knew died long ago, Kandadara. You can't do anything for me now." He said sadly. With that, he released his grip on her and got off of her.
When he said that, it cut her deep like a knife. She really wanted to believe otherwise, but the look on his face only confirmed how dead serious was. The look on his face only scratched the surface of how hurt he was.
William couldn't look at her now and all he could weakly say was, "Just go, okay...?"
Kandadara couldn't bring herself to look at him either. She said, through her sadness and tears, "I'm sorry..."
With that, she disappeared from his sight in an instant and went back to her dorm room with tears running down her face.
William just stood in that winter's storm and guilt began overwhelming his mind.
He knew very well that he did her wrong. He treated her just as bad as Yumi and her friends had treated him, so of course he felt really bad about it.
"I'm sorry, Kandadara..." He said softly into the open, knowing she couldn't hear him.
He knew what the right thing to do was to apologize. In fact, he owed it to her, but right now, he couldn't bring himself to do it.
He inwardly cursed himself as he silently walked back to his dorm room.
Right now, he just hurt too damn much.
So what do you think of my story? Do you think it's good? Please RR! Thanks!
-The Shy Sweet Lolita
Edit 6/4/12: I deleted a few chapters because I thought the plot wasn't going as I wanted it to. But I'm redoing this story and I'll change it up.
Edit 10/7/12: I have changed the point of views from first to third person. I also have written a whole outline of this story from start to finish. I'm going to be doing this for the stories I post here from here on out. As far as my older stories, I'll update them sooner or later. I was on a writers block.
Edit 2/19/13: I added at shit ton of the good stuff in this chapter. I worked hard to make this better, so I hope it's better now.
Edit 3/3/13: I fixed some spelling and grammar errors.
Edit 9/15/14: I revised this chapter yet again. I never seem satisfied, I guess.
7/17/15: I have revised this chapter once again, adding this or deleting that. I also fixed some spelling and grammar errors. A writer's job is never done.