~ Shiver ~ Sebastian Michealis x Ciel Phantomhive ~ Rated M ~
I'm falling.
I'm falling deeper and deeper into my own despair.
I can't find a way out.
Is this what it feels like? To be with a demon? To feel a burning lust crisp my soul black?
To fall deeper into the faux feelings of love, to drown in the bottom of a dark, dead sea as the icy water floats around you? Shivers run through my body.
To be made by horrifying sorrows, each lifted from your shoulders with every touch, only then to be filled with a ravenous desire for blood and pain, sweat and sex?
The need to open my body as a toy for the ruby eyed beast to chew.
Or the realization that this beauty with eyes of hellfire will forever touch me with a body of everlasting ice…
And yet I…I still want to feel his blistering skin between my legs.
That I want to feel the tightening coil of pleasure in my groin?
How is it that this crow can bring out my shame and push it in my face over and over?
And how I can't look away from his face as he walks through the door and his skin shines like the moon in a blackened midnight….illuminating my fears.
As his hands graces my face, as his fingers slide down my cheeks and over my frozen lips…
As he lays me down in the soft surrender of the sheets, his hands trace trails of burning ice across my thighs.
I shiver, too aware of the coldness that passes between our lust-racked bodies. My breath hitches as he lightly grazes my boyhood with his icy fingers. Slow strokes, followed by playful tugs. His mouth follows his hand; his tongue traces exotic patterns around my heated flesh.
He ghosts his nails across my chest, with each graze across my blushing nipples send cold shivers down my groin, each open cut from his razor nails send frozen rubies down my side. The black scar he brandishes on his hand alights as his tongue swirls through the cooling liquid.
Should I be horrified by this act? Disgusted as I watch the metallic liquid drips from his tongue?
Or should I ignore these feelings, and let the chilling darkness settle over my body?
A shiver arises against my taunt flesh as he pulls his body from mine.
I count to myself….one….two….three…
Three slender digits squirm inside me.
Frozen moans pour from my blued lips as he replaces the fingers with the blistering flesh I want…I need…I desire…
Goosebumps scatter themselves across my chilled skin, I react to the deepening pressure in my body…an arch of my back, tiny nails scrape his pale skin, gasps of pain and pleasure as his reactions over take my body as well.
His dagger like nails dig into the tender skin of my hips, his catlike eyes glow a revibrant ember in the darkness…
Canines appear as he loses control of his human form…..an icy bite of my neck, shivers run the length of my spine as he pierces my skin. Another involuntary arch of my back, an involuntary spread of my legs…
A silent mist of cool air washes over my ear as he begs, pleads, wants, whispers…..
"Ciel….."
Sweet honey laced with cool poison drips off his tongue…my name…my name….
He said my name.
Icicles plunge through my heart….my soul freezes over…
My body numbs to my surrounding, a frozen tear leaks from my eye.
His thrust speed up, he reaches deeper into my numb body as we both reach our frostbitten highs.
Cool release comes over both our bodies….we lay together in this cold embrace.
He pulls me toward his body on the bed…
Ruby red meet with violent blue…
He smirks….and kisses my head…
We lay like this for seconds, minutes, hours…..until I fall asleep.
I awaken….I awaken in this chilled midnight…and he isn't there.
I sit to the side of the oversized bed and stare at the empty door frame…
I feel the chilled tears run down my face….
I think….my faced again buried in the pillows…..
He left me….he left me…
A painful shiver runs through my heart…..my body lays abused on the bed….
Was our love…always this cold?