Title: You Are My Everything
Author: Junebuggnc
Rating: Probably Eventual NC-17
Pairing: Otalia
Summary: My take on the 3/26 episode and what if Olivia had not stopped Natalia from kissing her.
Note: Please forgive all legal and medical jargon and situations; a doctor and lawyer, I am not.
Standard Disclaimer: Guiding Light is a product of Proctor & Gamble . The characters are the creative property of the show and its producers.
Chapter 1
For a few weeks now, Olivia has recognized that she feels more than friendship for her best friend and housemate Natalia Rivera. They came together under the oddest of circumstances, yet they forged a wonderful friendship and created this amazing family including Olivia's daughter Emma. Because of Emma's school project and the mayor's press conference some people got the wrong idea of their relationship and assumed that they were a couple. Only when the idea presented itself did Olivia begin to realize more and more that she indeed wanted them to be a couple. She has suspected for a while that Natalia feels the same way, but Olivia knows that Natalia would never be able to have such a relationship because of her faith and religious beliefs or so she thought.
Olivia only wants Natalia to be happy and she knows that she would do anything within her power to make that happen so when one Frank Cooper came into Natalia's orbit she felt that he would be the answer to Natalia wishes for a stable family for Natalia and her son Rafe. Olivia helped Frank, coached him on how to woo Natalia. Natalia liked Frank; he was a good friend to her, but nothing more. They shared a few forced kisses as least on Natalia's part. When Frank's brother was unexpectedly killed in a car accident, Natalia being the good kind person that she is tried to help him and his family through their grief. It was then when Natalia was so desperately fighting her growing feelings for Olivia that when she was comforting a grieving Frank that their hugs crossed the line into sex. Natalia did not want Frank, she did not love Frank; in this moment she wanted Olivia, she loved Olivia.
Natalia knew it was a mistake; she regretted it even before it happened. She masked her feelings from a clueless Frank and headed home. Natalia confessed to Olivia about sleeping with Frank and how it was wrong to sleep with someone that you weren't in love with. She even told as much to Frank later, that it was a mistake and that it would never happen again. Olivia was hurt by Natalia's confession not because she thought Natalia had cheated on her or betrayed her, but because Natalia was so desperately hurting that Olivia was hurting for her. Natalia continued to wrestle with her feelings as she was falling deeper in love with Olivia. She knew Olivia felt the same way, but both ladies were too scared and terrified to broach the subject.
Then out of nowhere Frank shows up on the farmhouse porch dropping to bended knee, presenting a ring, professing his undying love for Natalia and asks for her hand in marriage. Natalia is shocked beyond belief that Frank would do this; in her shock she could not get the word "no" to come out of her mouth. Frank was satisfied for her to think about it. She talked to Olivia; trying to sort out her feelings. She prayed looking for answers, none came…just yet.
A week or so passed, Olivia still unsure of Natalia's feelings for her in regard to her faith did not believe that Natalia would ever reciprocate her feelings. Olivia herself was unsure if she was ready to cross that line with Natalia; their feelings for each other continued to deepen. Not wanting to move out of the farmhouse and uproot Emma again Olivia reluctantly started house/condo hunting preparing in case Natalia did accept Frank's proposal. Natalia had gone with Olivia to look at a condo, they were in the office discussing all the amenities when Natalia questioned why Olivia was looking. Olivia was trying to explain that she wanted to protect herself and Emma in case Natalia did say yes; that is when the beeper went off. The beeper that let's Olivia know when something is irregular with her pacemaker.
Natalia immediately took Olivia to Cedars. Soon Natalia was sitting next to a sedated Olivia while her pacemaker was being checked out. This was a familiar place for Natalia, sitting at Olivia's bedside while she was recovering. It gave Natalia time to reflect on her life and her life with Olivia. She finally realized that it was Olivia who made her happy. She was no longer going to deny it.
"OK, so I know you think I am going to sit here and scold you and tell you not to scare me; but I'm not going too. I just going to sit here and be here for you, like I always am." Said Natalia to an unconscious Olivia.
Natalia leaned forward and took Olivia's hand in hers.
"I've never had a friend like you ever and who would have thought that two people like us would be so close. It makes me happy. You make me happy." Continued Natalia.
Sitting here looking at Olivia as she lie sleeping, Natalia can't help be see her true beauty; how this woman loves so deeply and so fiercely always protecting those she loves. She could also see that Olivia had been wounded in the past and that is why Olivia kept this wall up. Olivia let very few people into her heart and Natalia knew she was one of those lucky people. In this moment Natalia knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that she was in love, in love with Olivia Spencer. She wondered to herself how this could be wrong. She knew the church doctrine; she didn't believe everything that it stood for as to her it seemed old and out dated. God would not have brought them together if it were wrong. God is love and there is nothing wrong with this love; it is right, it is true and it is pure.
Olivia had been semi conscious the entire time. At first she knew that Natalia was there in the room, she could sense her presence. Then she heard Natalia speaking, her voice filled with love. As the one sided conversation went on Olivia was becoming more awake and not just physically. She was finally becoming more awake to Natalia's feelings. She now knew that the young Latina did indeed feel the same way about her. But how could this work? She asked herself. Olivia still believed that Natalia would never act on these feelings and seek out a physical relationship with her. She realized if their relationship never became physical that it wouldn't matter. If all they ever had were hugs and kisses to the cheek that would be enough.
Natalia reached to Olivia's face and pushed a strand of hair off to the side. She stood and did the same thing to the other side all the while taking in the beauty of the sleeping woman. They both could feel the love radiating between them. Natalia literally felt herself being pulled forward, closer to Olivia. It was so natural to lightly place a kiss to the sleeping woman's forehead. They both felt the a tingling sensation when Natalia's lips met Olivia's forehead. It felt so right, Natalia wanted to do it again. She wanted more and so did Olivia. Natalia reached with her left hand to gently cup Olivia's cheek; she stroked it once. There was no turning back; Natalia slowly leaned down to Olivia and gently brushed her lips across Olivia's.
It was right; this is right thought Natalia as her lips moved slightly against Olivia's. This isn't wrong. God is love and He would not have brought them together if it was not meant to be. That is when she felt it; this kiss was no longer one sided, she had felt Olivia's lips move. At first, she thought that it was an unconscious reaction by the sleeping woman; Natalia started to pull back and break the kiss, but she felt a hand slide around her neck through hair to the back of her head and another began to caress her cheek she realized Olivia was awake, keeping her from pulling away. Then she felt Olivia's tongue stroke across her bottom lip testing the waters for entry. Natalia parted her lips granting access; slowly she sucked on the older woman's tongue as it stroke in and out of her mouth. Soon she returned the favor to which Olivia accepted.
The oxygen that was moving through their noses was now at a near panting pace; it was becoming too much and the kiss had to reluctantly be broken. Natalia let her head rest against Olivia's she was terrified to open her eyes; she knew she cross a line, a line that Olivia had no say in. Retreat set it.
"Oh my God, Olivia…I…I…What…I'm so sorry!" Exclaimed Natalia not believing what she had just done.
"What Natalia? Why?" Asked Olivia catching her breath.
"You were…I shouldn't have…It wasn't…I'm so sorry!" Apologized Natalia again.
"I'm not." Replied Olivia with a slight smirk about her face.
"You're not what?"
"I'm not sorry you kissed me, Natalia."
Olivia could see blush set in on the young Latina's face. She took Natalia's hand trying to calm the younger woman.
"Not that I haven't wanted to do that before, I just didn't expect that the first time we did that, for real, that it would be in a hospital examine room." Continued Olivia.
Natalia stifled a giggle, but Olivia could see that it had lighten the mood.
"Or when one of us was unconscious." Added Olivia.
Now they were both giggling trying to recomposed themselves.
"So…" Said Natalia.
"So, it looks like we need to talk." Replied Olivia.
"Yes, we do."
"How about we go home and do just that?"
"I need…"
"What? What do you need Natalia?"
"I need to make a stop. Can you take a cab and I'll meet you shortly at home?"
"Sure, I can do that."
"OK…Will talk as soon as I get home." Said Natalia as she turned to get her coat and leave.
"Natalia, wait! Wait."
The younger woman concerned about Olivia stepped back next to the bed taking Olivia's hand in hers.
"What is it, Olivia? Are you alright?"
"Yes, I think so. What did Rick say about my heart?"
"Oh right. He said that the battery just needed to be replaced. You are good to go."
"Nothing serious, just a battery?"
"Yes. You are fine. You are going to be around for a very long time, Olivia."
"Good, I plan on it."
"Are you OK to get a cab so I can run my errand?"
"Yeah, my car is at the Beacon; so I'll catch a cab back there and finish a couple of things so I can quit for the day. Then I'll head home."
"OK, I'll see you in a little while."
Natalia was still next to Olivia. Olivia wanted so badly to kiss Natalia again like before, but she kept herself in check. Instead, she picked up Natalia's hand, which she had been holding ever since Natalia moved back to her bedside, bringing it to her mouth kiss the back of it.
"Yes, I'll see you later." Said Olivia.
Olivia watched the younger woman exit the room, even though things seemed uncertain Olivia was happy in this moment and she knew that she would do whatever she had to keep it that way. Rick discharged Olivia and she caught a cab back to the Beacon. Natalia on the other hand headed to church. She needed a private conversation with God.
TBC…