I worry the most when I am alone. I am most depressed when I am around those I care for the most. I am only me when I know there is no one around that can use anything I do against me. Can you guess who I am? Because if you can figure out who I am then please, PLEASE! Let me know.

I worry because it gives me a task. I worry because I think the next thing I say or do could be the one that ruins a friendship. I worry because if I don't then I have nothing left. I worry because it is my life.

I am most depressed around the ones I care for because they are going places and I have yet to buy my plane ticket anywhere. I am depressed because I here the stories yet lack the action. I am depressed because I can watch the game but I am not allowed to play. I am depressed because I feel worthless.

I am only me with my self because I don't want anyone to see me. I am only me by myself because I am afraid of what people will think. I am afraid because the rejection that I might feel. I am me only when I am by my self because I don't think anyone can handle the pain I feel deep down inside.

Now can you guess who I am? Just think, think really hard, think of the one person you THINK you know. Oh times up, I am your friend! You don't know these things because not only am I afraid to show it but you never asked! You never asked how I feel or if I needed your help or anything like that! You don't know my issues because I am always worried about yours. You never know what depresses me because I am more worried about what depresses you! I can't be myself around you because you can't be yourself with me! Who am I!? I am your best friend and this is how little you know! This is how little you have cared to ask! This is what I need you to know but you lack the interest!

Now I don't know what to think or what to do because you have clogged my mind so much that I don't know if I am ever going to know who I am! Because in me, all I see is you! YOU! You make me feel the best around you and desire to be with you, but I feel the worst because I can't be you, I can't have what you have I can't!