Chapter #1: Realization

He's really gone! That's the one thought that kept going through my head. (I flash back to 8 months ago, when Edward left me in the woods.) I couldn't come to terms with it before. I refused to believe he was gone for good. Now as I sit and look out my window realization hits me while a stray tear falls down my cheek. I look out at the driveway where Ed…. His car used to pick me up for school every day. "Did you ever really love me?" I sobbed to myself.

A knock at my bedroom door brought me back to the present, but I ignored it. I hear the door creak open as the old wood whines in protest from the many times it's been slammed when I would run to the room crying myself to sleep or me and Jake had yet another argument. (Me and Jake dated about 4 months after 'he' left. Needless to say, it didn't end well.)

"Bella?" My fathers voice called, as he stepped into the room. "Ya dad?" I replied turning to face him. "Are you ok honey?" he asked. Worry causing his brow to furrow. Should I tell him? Will he send me to Florida? The tears begin to steadily stream down my face now as I look at him. "He's really gone." I say as more of a statement then a question. "Bella honey it's been almost a year" he replies sadly, wrapping me in his arms. It was comforting, but not the arms I still longed to be held by. "He's not coming, back is he?" I asked, even though I already knew the answer.

My dad pulled back so as to fully view my face, most likely gaging my reaction to his next words. "No Hun he's not" He stated solemnly rubbing my hair back with his hand. I just cried harder collapsing in his arms. My daddies' arms. I had been so numb these last few months, only crying in my sleep. It felt good to get it all out. Like a weight had been lifted off my chest and I could breathe a little better. I let my tears soak into my fathers' work jacket, the tears of the unwanted. "SShhh! Its ok baby girl!" my dad soothed me. He was never one for expressing emotions but these last few months he had become my rock.

It seemed like hours later that my eyes had finally run out of tears and I had dosed off on his shoulder. I didn't realize it until I felt my dad lift me from my chair and carry me to my bed. Keeping my eyes closed I pretended as if I was sound asleep, I didn't want to see how much I was hurting him still. Even though I saw it every day although he tried to hide it. This would be different, pure sadness, raw emotion. After he laid me down I heard him walk back to the chair by my window. Squinting I could see his silhouette but he couldn't see that I was watching.

He sat on the chair shoulders slumped in defeat, head in hand. "Why God?!" he cried into his hands. My dad never prayed it took me off guard causing me to open my eyes fully, but he didn't see me. His head lifted to the sky but his eyes stayed shut firmly. "Why my baby Lord? Please help her God, don't let her suffer Lord, not her!" he sounded angry but at the same time broken.

I had tried to hide my pain from him by any means. But it was a waste, he knew, he always knew he had never been fooled by my façade. I stood slowly looking at my dad who had put his head back in his hands and was sobbing. Walking up to him I wrapped my arms around him "I'm so sorry daddy!" I cried. He wrapped me tightly in his arms in response. No words were needed in that moment. My pain became my dads pain, and I became my daddy's little girl again. We were both hurting. His prayer had been answered, he was suffering because I was suffering.

~~~~~ 1,452 miles away Denali, Alaska ~~~~~

Alice's Pov

"What the fuck Rose?!" I heard Emmett yell from upstairs. They were fighting yet again. Ever since we left, they had been at each other's throats. Leaving Bella had been the worst decision we had ever made. "I miss you so much Bella" I whispered to myself, forgetting that everyone else could hear me. "Me to" I heard Emmett respond. Followed by a sharp smacking sound of granite against granite. "Damnit Rosalie Lillian Hale!" Emmy screamed. "Well I better go break it up…. again." Jasper said, standing and walking up the stairs at a human pace. I just nodded. It was nothing new anymore it had been going on for months. I wished more than anything that we had stayed and I knew Jazz still blamed himself. But if my visions lately were a sign of anything then it wouldn't be much longer. Something just needed triggered to set everything in motion.

Sorry for the short chapter but I promise to keep going on this one. I spent 2 years writing this story and posting it, it was once added as Worthy of your love but my spelling back then was atrocious and unfortunately, I lost all my old account information. It's been years since I've written and wanting to get back into it so I am now fixing some of my stories to begin but hoping to write something new after editing this one. So, welcome back twilightmamaof3 J now known as " twilightmom1988Forever"