The Baseball Field
Summary: A poem inspired by the spoilers about Ian and Mickey and the baseball field and how things are different this time.
Disclaimer: I don't own Shameless.
Sorry I haven't been writing fics lately. I have a lot of classes and a big translation project to do this semester. I actually wrote this for my writing class. I know it's not what I usually do, but I hope you guys enjoy some of these for now.
We used to come here all the time
standing apart, shuffling through the dewy grass at night,
past the bleachers empty of an audience, to hide
I was paranoid we'd be seen anywhere else
It made me anxious those days: the idea of getting caught
Back then, we'd steal away to meet here; I let you fuck me; we never kissed
But this time isn't like that
Hands shaking, this time you aren't so sure of yourself
Back then, you always beamed at me, smitten, convinced everything was fine
When honestly I couldn't let myself love you back
I just wanted to get away from family expectations
and judging stares from the neighborhood
This time wasn't like that because now
You aren't just a distraction to me; my heart has revealed itself
We aren't some shitty fairytale; we were bound to hurt each other
but I know I don't resemble who I used to be
because I didn't push you away; I won't ever again
This time in the lonely baseball field, we didn't go look for shooting stars
Instead, we're watching the sunrise, hand in hand
Back then, I didn't love you
But this time isn't like that