Chapter 1

She was hidden in the space between the bed and the wall her back was leaning against. She had been in this place before and replayed all the same thoughts that had gone through. There was no room in her head for all the yelling that had taken place last time and all the input she didn't necessarily plan on asking for. It all came down to another bought of perpetual panic attacks and nearly endless morning sickness that couldn't be cured.

Then he walked in and there was no more thoughts floating around and suffocating her. There was nothing than her sitting against the wall on the floor, staring at a pregnancy test, and tears running down her face. He didn't have to guess the results.

He slid down next to her before pulling her into his arms. There wasn't much he could say that would be right in that situation, but simply holding her was something he had never done wrong before. He kissed her forehead while slipping the test from between her fingers to take a look at it for himself.

"I…" She coked out at first with little luck. She immediately sat up and wiped at her soaked cheeks. "I'm not hiding. I just didn't want to wait and Carly offered me some privacy."

"I didn't think you were." His voice was excessively calm as if he were walking on verbal eggshells.

"How did you know I was here anyway?"

"Ma said you were sick earlier. You fainted but refused to go to the hospital so Carly gave you a room."

"She called you?"

"She was worried about you. Knew I would be worried about you. It's not a big deal."

"It's not really considered privacy if the hotel manager calls around throwing out other people's business."

"She didn't know you were taking a pregnancy test or else probably wouldn't have called. She'd be up here herself making sure you were okay. Probably something she can relate to."

"You're right. I'm sorry. I just really wasn't ready to see the world just yet. I only took the test ten minutes ago."

"Do you want me to go?"

"No…"

"So what do we do now then? We can go to my place and just hang out… We could go to the Haunted Star…"

"I probably shouldn't drink until we decide what we're going to do."

"…to see your family."

"Same difference. That means no Jakes too. No beer. No bar downstairs. If I say pregnant that is 9 months of no alcohol. People in my family don't do that very well."

"Lucky does for the most part. He tries to at least."

"He's an addict. It doesn't count." She started shaking her head. "I'm insane. I'm sitting her thinking about something as remedial as my next drink and I'm pregnant. I'm pregnant. I'm pregnant." With each time she said it her voice would register a new tone as if it was just finally hitting her. Suddenly she turned to him. "You knocked me up."

"Yep." He nodded along. "Why don't we go to Kelly's and pick up some food on the way back to my place. Then we can talk all about how I got you pregnant."

"Or we could stay here and get room service. They make fried pickles here because it's the only way Carly will willingly eat vegetables without being pregnant."

"Fried pickles? Is that a pregnancy thing?"

"No. That's an always thing. Oh, and get ginger ale. When I was pregnant last time I couldn't breathe without tasting stomach acid. Ginger helps."

A quick phone call downstairs and an hour later they were on the bed tucked under the covers with their food containers spread across the floor. He was on his back with her tucked under his arm lying on her side, and her thigh slightly over his.

"Are you expecting me to have an abortion just because I've had one before?" She asked out of no where with nothing accusatory to her voice.

"No. I'm not sure what to do think about your last pregnancy. I'm sure that things are at least slightly different than last time. I'm different than last time."

"Everything is different. My family doesn't send people away we just ignore them so that's the same, but I'm not the same person I was then. The Falconeris' don't seem the type to just give a kid a name and then ship it off until it becomes grown enough to be power hungry."

"What about the Cornthos side?"

"What about it? Mike is a great guy even if he's done some bad things before. I've known Sonny my entire life and he was great with me as a kid even until I met you. I remember being excited to see him when I was too little to know anything better. And I love Michael, Morgan, and Jocelyn."

"Are you saying that you want to have the baby then?"

"No. Not necessarily. I'm just saying things are different. There are different things to consider."

"Well…where do you want to start?"

"If we had the baby, would we be able to give it a good life? Not just help it be healthy, but actually give it a life. With happiness and love and everything a person's supposed to get."

"I think so. I think we'll never love anyone the way we love each other now and if we had a baby then we'd love it more than anything too. It would be just pieces of us put together in one person."

"Would you still love me that much if I didn't want the baby?"

"Yes. I'm not going to stop loving you for anything." He kissed the top of her head. She had shifted on to her back and began threading her fingers through his.

"The kid would have a lot of family around." She started giggling. "How would we explain that their cousins would also be their uncles?"

"It sounds so wrong when you say it out loud like that." He had pulled her over until she was lying directly on top of him staring down at his wide eyes and huge grin. "You want the baby." He was reading her mind rather than questioning. She bit her lip and nodded. In a rush of excitement he rolled them completely over so he was lying on top of her.

"You're going to squish it!"

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