Title: Worth
Author: Mika
Beta: thethirdstone
Band: SID
Pairing: Aki x ?, Mao
Rating: PG13
Genre: Angst
Chapters: One shot / drabble
Warning: None
Disclaimer: I do not own anyone!
Summary: I did not want to be here on the opposite side of you.
Notes: This is something I've wanted to write for a while. It turned out shorter than planned, but I can't make it any longer. Please comment
"Was it worth it?"
You asked me that question one day, one day when had ran into each other at the store. Without knowing how it all happened, we were sitting by a table in a modest coffee shop. A strong aroma was in the air and we sat there with a cup in our hands each. I did not want to be here on the opposite side of you.
"Was it worth it?"
A question you kept repeating so many times it got very difficult for me to ignore the question you wanted me to answer. A question I didn't want to answer, despite your hard-working efforts. But I didn't open my mouth to speak of something else and lead the conversation in another direction. I simply sipped the hot coffee, avoiding the question you kept repeating like a broken record.
"Was it worth it?"
Worth? What is that? How can you decide what is worthy of you, or who you are worthy to be with? How do you define someone's worth? Your question was asked again.
"Was it worth it?"
Without letting go, you just keep on chanting and I just keep drinking the coffee. I simply stared ahead because I couldn't bare your prying eyes that tried to search for an unspoken answer in mine. I won't speak to you about this, after all these years, I won't tell you.
"Was it worth it?"
It's not like it was a simple whim that came to me like it was a flyer carried by the wind and landing upon my face. I just wanted him. I want him. Even now. All I ever wanted, all I ever want, it's always him.
"Was it worth it?"
Again and again and again and again. Your question keeps going round in circles. I want him. Because he brings a dream of a sunny spot in the spring to the dark place where I live.
"Was it worth it.....?"
Like a child wants a toy, I just want him.