Title: Pieces
Author: Mika (bleeding_jaws)
Beta: thethirdstone
Band: Sadie, The Gazette
Pairing: Mao x Mizuki (one sided), Mizuki x ?, Reita x Ruki (one sided), Ruki x ?
Rating: Pg-15
Genre: Angst
Chapters: Drabble
Warning: None
Disclaimer: No. I don't own anyone at all!
Summary: "Does it feel like this?"
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Mao's POV
It all became just a far away disturbance as everything went silent inside of my head. And then I turned around and my feet led me out of the room in a flight. It became too painful to watch. An eyesore for my eyes, I had to escape before I'd burn my hand more.
It was cold as I sat outside on the stone stairs. I pulled up my knees under my chin, buried my face in my arms and let the tears fall on my sleeves as I sobbed quietly so no one would hear.
Then you came, walking silently and without words you sat down beside me, brows furrowed and eyes swimming in worry. Putting your arm around my shoulders and pulling me a little bit closer to your side, I wondered if tears were pressing behind your eyes as well. Was your heart tormented and played with by seeing Ruki as mine was by seeing him?
I wonder how you feel like. When you see Ruki with that man whose name I can't recall. What does it feel like? I can tell by the look in your eyes and the simple way your body twitches and the way you just turn around and walk away. You're my best friend, I can tell.
"Does it feel like this?"
I want to ask you, but I can't. Is it the same painful emotions that tug on my heart, do you feel the same burning sensation of dreadfulness? Hopelessness, and does it make your tears come out, leaving marks streaked on your cheeks? Can I see the signs...?
Leaning into the simple touch of your arm around me and the comfortable side of you that I'm leaning into makes me feel worse inside. I look up and there he is. Standing before us with someone else clinging to his arm. I want to cry out loudly. I just stare at him and my grasp becomes stronger as I clasp onto your shirt. Neither one of us says anything, I hide my face away as I can't seem to make the tears that keep falling stop. I only hear his footsteps echoing into nothingness and it certainly does not help on the pain I feel inside and it doesn't make the tears cease.
Misty clouds hovered up on the blue sky. Rain was falling heavily outside from the distressed skies, each drop of water crashing down was drumming pain in our ears. Every sound became mere noise in the background and silence was all around, tightening, like a hand around your throat. Unpleasantly present.
"Yes, it feels like this."
You'd say, had you only found your words lost somewhere down your throat.