Syrupy Blackness
Summary: A poem about Mickey's compulsion to protect himself and how Ian helped wipe that all away.
Disclaimer: I don't own Shameless.
Sorry I haven't been writing fics lately. I have a lot of classes and a big translation project to do this semester. I actually wrote this for my writing class. I know it's not what I usually do, but I hope you guys enjoy some of these for now.
My heart is a dripping
oozing
bloody
mass of filth
I fashioned it that way,
painting it all on, slick and sticky like tar
sealing away any flicker of weakness in me
to protect myself, my father's son
I tried to bite it off
this sick, sentimental part of me,
an animal trapped, gnawing at its own limbs;
But he reformed everything, flashed a sweet smile and
set fire to my senses; filled me
with feelings I'd never heard of
passion and acceptance
I feared it would spread and kill me
The time I spent with him
entranced, sneaking off in the dead
of night, pretending none of it was real
He soldiered past the guards; I set aside my armor
my shelter, my family,
and truly felt free, loved
this boy with his dreams of getting away
from this death sentence that loomed over both of us
Fear waded through syrupy blackness
in me; though I was afraid to kiss him
he taunted me and I finally discovered
a taste like honey on his lips
This sweet tooth of mine, an addiction
scraping the sludge from my heart scoop by scoop:
all my hard work; leaving me unprotected
against a love I shouldn't want
Simultaneously dooming me to ruin
and pumping me full of a will to live