A/N: I know I already have two stories yet to be finished but I just could not resist writing this down when I read a story on this pairing. Please read and let me know what you think. Thank you.

Bella did not jump of the cliffs. Jacob stopped her and so the Cullen's are not back and will not be back.

Chapter 1-

'No this can't be happening' 'Why me?' 'Why am I an abnormality with the shittiest luck possible to mankind?'

I wanted to scream. I wanted to run away and never look back. This couldn't be happening! He was my father's friend for god's sake, a man twice my age. Why do the wolf gods hate me so much? Wasn't changing into a female wolf or my fiancée leaving me for my cousin enough that now this?

I took a few steps behind as three people stared at me in silence, two completely aware of what had just happened. No, I could not deal with this right now. I ran out of the small red brick house ignoring the voice of my friend or someone who I considered closest to a friend who was telling me to stop and talk to him. Did he not realize that I did not want to talk about this? I could not talk about one more thing gone wrong in my life.

Seriously someone upstairs is laughing at my plight and making plans on 'How to make Leah Clearwater's life more miserable'.

I ran a hand through my short hair. I hated it. I had loved my long tresses but when I became this abnormality Sam literally ordered me to get it cut. A wolf cannot have shaggy fur he had told me and so I had taken a scissor and chopped my waist length thick black hair into this short mane that barely reached my ears while tears flowed down my eyes, another fuck you from the world to me.

I wanted to phase and run, let my legs lead me to unknown destination. Running was the only good part of being a wolf. Freedom, it was the freedom I desperately craved at this moment. But I could not phase right now. Paul and Quil were on patrol. They would hear my thoughts and everyone would know that I imprinted on 'him' as there were no secrets in this pack. No I would hide this. Take it with me to my grave if I had to.

Imprinting was the love at first sight version for our wolves a magical bond that eternally tied us to someone else. Whether they were single or not did not matter. Where they were from did not matter and their age definitely did not matter. All that mattered was them. In a pack of 10, 5 had already imprinted and now me.

Sam on Emily, Jared on Kim, Paul on Rachel, Quil on Claire, Jacob on Bella and now me on 'him'.

No I would never accept this. I could never accept this. Imprinting was not for me and I will it prove to everyone that it can be resisted. You need a heart to fall in love which I clearly don't. Sam tore it to shreds when he left me for my cousin and as everyone in the Pack says I am the Pack bitch, the one who deserves to be alone and maybe that is the truth.

I walked to my house in silence. How was I going to tell my mother this? She never expressed it but I knew that she sort of had feelings for him. After my father expired almost a year back, he had really supported her in getting back on her feet and somewhere in that journey she had started developing feelings for him. She never told us or him but I could see it in the way she behaved around him. They were meant to be not me and him.

He is 42 while I am 21, just two years older than his own daughter.

How could the spirits think that he was my soul mate? I was supposed to fall in love with him, be with him but I was too broken for that and so was he. Everyone who knew him knew this about him. He was still in love with his ex- wife who left him nearly nineteen years back. He had not dated since then. Maybe that was what was similar in us both. Both still terribly in love with their first love and could not let it go even if we wanted to.

What would the Pack think of this? Not that I cared though knowing that it was about me sure the comments would be rude and mean just like they always were. Jacob, Seth and Embry would understand. I don't know whether they would support this imprinting or not but they would not berate me or pass vile comments over it. Seth my dearest brother would support me and be by my side in every situation even if the entire world was against me and Jacob and Embry just did not have it in them to pass berate comments.

Paul and Jared would have a field day with this imprinting. They were not bad people per se but just were opinionated about every damn matter irrespective it concerned them or not. Both of them had imprinted on girls who were of the same age and they did not understand what this was like.

The pups Brady and Collin would be indifferent and how Sam would react I had no clue. He still claimed to have feelings for me but they were subdued by his love for Emily. Quil would probably be the only one who understood.

He had imprinted on a two year old for heaven's sake and knew how such an imprinting could feel. But his thoughts were platonic. He looked at Claire like a sister, while my thoughts…

He was an adult just like I was and even if I hated it I would be lying, if I said that I did not want to run back to him and engulf myself in his scent.

Damn! Why did my mother have to send me to give Billy her prepared fish fry? If she had dropped by herself or sent Seth instead I would have never been in this predicament. I would still be the Pack Bitch who hated everyone and everything and loved tormenting people with my thoughts through the Pack mind. Maybe this was my punishment for being such a Bitch, imprinting on an unattainable man.

I clearly remember the scene in front of me when I had entered the living room of the Black's. Billy and he were sitting on the couch drinking beer and watching baseball while Jacob was sitting on one of the chairs in the corner talking to Bella on the phone making plans with her to meet her at the beach in sometime. I had given Billy one of my rare smiles before giving him the box of fish fry. Out of courtesy I had looked at 'him' to tell him a hello before I left on my own way. After all he had been my father's best friend at one point of time and the least I could do was say a hello when I saw him. I reserved my hatred and moodiness for people who deserved it and he clearly did not deserve it.

The minute my eyes met his everything disappeared. The world around me froze and I swear I could hear angels singing in the sky. All the cords that once connected me to this world disappeared. My love for Sam and my hatred for him and Emily disappeared. My mother and brother did not matter as much as before. He was my everything and I would be everything he wanted me to be.

I heard Jacob mutter a shit before the receiver fell from his hand and I snapped out of my daze. Billy and Jacob were staring at me unbelieving the sight in front of them and he was curiously looking around not quite understanding our reaction. No one had said a word for a few minutes processing the weird happening that had just occurred and that was when I had run out. I could not deal with more stares and more comments. I was a freak I knew it, the first female werewolf of the Pack surrounded by nine teenage boys. I did not need this too attached to my name imprinting on a man old enough to be my father. From Jacob and Bella's imprinting, we now knew that it was possible to imprint on someone who was not native unlike what the elders had once thought but this was unheard of and of course it had to happen to me. I was the perfect guinea pig for all the experiments the spirits wanted to conduct.

I opened the door to my house and was glad when I scented it and found it empty. I could not talk to anyone right now. I could not answer my mother and brother on why I looked so rattled and what had just happened. It was better if they never knew after all I was never going to do anything about it. I was not a masochist by any angle but I just did not look at imprinting like everyone else looked at it. For everyone else it was a gift, the shortcut to find your perfect mate skipping all those years of casual dating and broken hearts but for me it was a constant reminder that I was not good enough for the man I loved with every inch of me. That my cousin was better off for him to be with him and have his babies to pass on the wolf gene.

I laughed a bitter laugh. Another fuck you to me! With my phasing , my periods had stopped and because we could not go to a doctor I had no clue that whether they would ever start again or not. As of now I had made peace with the fact that I would never be able to have children. I had never been much of a maternal person but a part of me did want to experience this in life and that had been taken away from me just like a million other things had been in the past.

I walked to my room locking it behind me and lied down on the bed in my room closing my eyes. This was not how I envisioned my future to be. I had thought that I would be married by now living a happy blissful life but I guess fate does not know what that means when it comes to me.

Thoughts of 'him' filtered through my mind. His tall frame and built fit body, his curly hair that I had a sudden urge to run my hands through, his moustache that made him look even sexier and his chocolate brown eyes that I could stare in for hours.

I groaned and buried my head in the pillow. Why was I thinking about him like this? I did not look at him like this a few hours back. What changed? Oh yes I imprinted on him making him suddenly everything I could want and think about.

No I had to be strong. People would never accept such a relationship. Our community would never accept a forty two year old man dating a twenty one year old. The pack and elders would have to accept as they would have no choice in it. Not that that road would be easy but still.

What about him?

What would he make of all of this? Would he even want to look at my face after I told him the truth, in case I told him the truth? I wouldn't be shocked if he told me to get out and never show him my face again. He had babysat me as a kid.

Tears dropped down my face as I sat in that dark room thinking what did I do to deserve this in life. I never cried in front of anyone else. I was the cold person they thought me to be in their presence but at this moment when I was alone my walls came crashing down.

Oh how I missed my father. He would know what to do. He always knew what to do.

I don't know how long I cried for but a knock at the door and a familiar voice pulled me out of my thoughts.

"Leah, open the door"

I shook my head. I did not want to talk about this. If I did not talk about it I could pretend that it is not real.

"Leah please let me come in. I need to talk to you" pleaded the person outside the door.

"Go away" I screeched in a teary voice

"Leah I will break down the door if you don't open it. You know you cannot fight it"

"Try me" I snarled

"Leah, please just give me a chance to tell you what I want to tell you"

I sighed. He was one persistent person who would not leave without getting what he wanted to.

I got out of my bed and opened the door wiping my face. I was too tired to put on that mask of indifference and rudeness that I put on when the pack was around.

"Yes Jacob, how can I help you?"

The next thing I know he had hugged me to him. The only person who hugged me these days was Seth, even my mother rarely hugged me and so I basked in this warmth and returned the hug.

"Are you okay?" he asked

I nodded my head "As can be" "Does the pack know?"

He shook his head "No this is your news to share and I was not sure if you wanted them to know and don't worry even dad won't say a word to anyone"

I nodded my head thankful to them both.

"I don't want anyone to know" "It is better if they don't know"

"Leah" he sighed "Don't disregard imprinting. It is the best thing to happen to me and to many others"

Of course he would say this. After all he imprinted on the girl he loved more than anything. Bella Swan aka ex leech lover now wolf lover, was nearly a constant presence in Jake's life before and after he phased. He imprinted on her the first time he saw her after his change but he hid it from her because she was still in love with her leech ex boyfriend. With the threat of Victoria looming over her she had spent majority of her time with Jake here on the res and after Jake had successfully killed Victoria in the newborn army singlehandedly, destroying a few bones of his in the process she had ran up to him and confessed her love for him to which he had revealed his imprinting on her and they had been happy since.

He continued talking when I did not interrupt "Jared adores Kim, Rachel is the best thing to happen in Paul's life, I love Bella more than anything in the world and even Quil is extremely happy in being Claire's brother for the time being"

I know he specifically did not mention Sam and Emily.

I scoffed "Jacob it is not that easy. I don't look at him like a brother or father figure"

"Leah it is as difficult as you make it to be and as simple as you want it to be and so what is the matter if he is a few years older than you. Age does not matter as much as you think it does"

I scoffed again "I am not going to accept the imprint. It is a mistake."

"Leah it is not a mistake and none of us could fight it and neither will you be able to"

I shook my head. I was adamant on this. My heart belonged to someone else and it had no place for anyone else.