Disclaimer: LOST with all its characters – unfortunately – does not belong to me.
Lyrics are taken from the song 'Home' by Michael Buble.
I have to point out again: English is not my mother tongue. So please let me know if I made some terrible mistakes and I will feel ashamed about it. I mean, really. I will.
„I'm gonna let him die!"
„No, you won't."
Even though she was not sure why Juliet interrupted Jack right away. Of course, she had hope that maybe she would be allowed to go home if she made sure the surgery went well. But she wanted Ben dead. She really did. That's why she asked Jack to mess up. To let him die. No, to kill him.
But suddenly she wasn't so sure about that anymore. She looked at that man on the table, the man who treated her like she was his property. All sorts of emotions streamed through her mind, her body. Anger, fear and, surprisingly, pity. There were those moments in the past when Juliet recognized that Ben wasn't that tough at all. She saw it in his eyes and in his actions. He was human after all and she couldn't just let him die. She was a doctor.
At least that's what she told herself. She wasn't able to admit that although Ben has done terrible things to a lot of people – and to her – she cared about him. A lot. Because he cared about her, she knew that for sure, even though he would never make such a confession. He needed her thus he just couldn't let her go. He became her home.
Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home
Sometimes feeling needed is the closest thing to feeling home. Juliet hasn't felt like home for a long time. She couldn't lose it again.