So let me just say I am happy and sad at the same time...I'm trying to figure out how that can be how I am both relaxed yet overwhelmed. Feel so alone, but yet have to people to love. How my words no longer speak what my heart truly feels. I am so full of love yet I am starved from abuse. How I ignore the loudest voice yelling at me in a silent room. I'm trying to figure out how all of this could be how can be so sad and cry everyday, but I never make sound and only bear a frown.