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The Way it wasn't Written
Yaoi, a/u, angst, lemon
There's nothing here…there hasn't been for a long time now. This room was barren to the eye but overflowing to the mind. Memories, flooded in every emotion. Here I stand in the middle of nothing yet it is the middle of everything to me.
A world I will never forget. I can not. I try to stop my hand from running along the cold steel door frame…so icy. I glance at the floor here is where the bed used to be…a bed where he used to lay. A bed where he would lose his control over the loss of our home world and our families, and only I saw.
No one knew but me. His hands would run across the blankets angrily gripping them in his balled fists, his tearless face pressed into the pillow. He sought revenge, to amend our home world, and his tears were few to none. He was a proud man, who saw no need to weep, only destroy. So to me, him on that bed in such a way ripping at the blankets, those were his tears…tears I was unable to wipe away.
Pain, that I could not erase. A home world I could not bring back. I could only stand by his side and do his bidding, agree with his every choice and I did.
I take no joy in many of the things I did so long ago, but who wouldn't change something in their past if they could?
I allow my thoughts to trail away to new ones. Stepping out of the small rebuilt room of Frieza's ship. I hated that ship and I still do, but it is the only tangible memory I have left, so I fixed it up, repaired it, and I stand in the midst of this god awful thing alone, but not for long. Soon I will be back , trying to fix the broken past.
How, how can I fix the past?
To you…the past is stagnate…a piece of a painting engraved in your mind, motionless. The canvas unable to be restored in any way, but to me it is a whole new world with endless outcomes and possibilities.
I walk down the long corridor my hair swaggering behind me. I died to so many eyes except my own. I did not end up in heaven or HFIL, but here, and no it isn't limbo…it's space, but nothing exists how it should be. I can not proceed into the present reality, only my own present.
Meaning, I can't go past the time when I died…so I know nothing of anyone's future only the hell I live in. I don't even know what I am doing here, why I was sent here. I gave up on figuring that out long ago. I don't know if Frieza was killed, I believe he was or how else would I find this ship? I do know he was alive when I died so therefore if I could find this ship that means things from alternate realities or universes can get to me…meaning I can get to them or at least change them. I fixed this ship up because it was in horrible condition, it's not that much better, but it works. I found that if I travel to earth its always at the same point I arrive…my death. When Piccolo kills Kakarott and I. Then I just end up back here. So I don't venture there anymore. I don't venture anywhere.
But I have had a lot of time on my hands and a lot of experimenting. So I decided to attempt to build a time machine, but not for the future, it's to go back into the past to change everything…to make everything how it is supposed to be. It took me awhile to do it, but I finally gathered all the parts I believed I needed and it has been completed for some time now. Although to have such a machine is not a luxury as most would think, it is a burden on my heart to get the past right.
I have never attempted to use the time machine yet. I don't know why…maybe I am afraid of the outcome, or maybe I am afraid that I will just end up at the point of my death again, or the death of others. I have decided that either way it is pointless for me to stay here in the vast emptiness awaiting nothing but lonely days. And my other fear is a simple question, is the past right if I change it?
My footsteps echo almost musically as I enter the control room. I bring a hand to my shoulder and wipe my heavy mane off of it. My hair has always been bothersome, especially in battle, but I think it has made me a better warrior. I have learned to fight well with it, and I would never cut it anyway, it's my trademark, and Vegeta always loved it.
My eyes get misty at the thought of that name. Vegeta…he was the reason I wanted to go back into the past, not to mention I just didn't want to be stuck here anymore. I love the Prince, and I have no idea what his life is like right now. I will never know what his life is like right now. I hate this place! I can not wait until I leave. My hands slam down on the control panel making sparks fly, but I didn't care. I do know of my Prince and the life we had together.
I want that life back, but something bothersome tugs at my mind…it's my heart, and I swore I didn't have one of those. I want Vegeta to be happy and maybe he is happy in his time right now, maybe he has a family, but I keep telling myself he would be so much happier with me on Planet Vegeta. I truly think he would.
My plan is simple, all I have to do is pick a time before Vegeta-Sai blows up and prevent it from happening. I was not on the planet when it blew up, and I wasn't with Vegeta either. Frieza had sent me and a few of our men to purge another planet. I look out of the window at the dusty vacuum that is space, and sigh. I miss my home world, I miss my father, he killed himself for us, but most of all I miss Vegeta. There has to be a way to stop Frieza, and keep everything from being destroyed. I guess my plan isn't so simple, but I know it can be done.
I glance at the time machine. I can't believe I am going travel in that thing, it looks broken. I'm sure it will only be able to make one trip so I have to get it right. I look around the ship one last time. "I hope I never have to see this thing again." Stepping inside of my home made time machine. I strap myself in and set the coordinates I believe are correct. All I can think about is seeing Prince Vegeta. My Prince, to hear his voice, to see that flame of hair, to feel his skin beneath my lips. That is all I want.
Once I hit this button, everything is going to change. My finger waves slowly over the green switch. Why I hesitate I don't know, anything is better than being here. I quickly drop the finger as it pushes down on the button and the machine roars to life. I feel the speed kick up as I see everything fade around me as time seems to be ripped away. Revealing a blanket of white surrounding me, my canvas that I am about to paint…
~^Meanwhile on Earth ^~
Vegeta was watching as Trunks sparred with Goten. The two boys happily threw ki blasts at each other with amazing speed. The Prince smiled pleased with the boys they seemed to grow stronger with each spar they had. He ran his hands through the blades of grass that were beneath him, tugging at them gently. The sun glistened on the sweaty boys as they attempted to dodge each other's attacks. They had been going at it for two straight hours.
Vegeta yelled at the boys to work on there defense moves as Goku trotted over with a plate of drinks and sandwiches. "Lunch is ready guys!" Before the sentence was even finished Goten had a drink in hand and a sandwich in his mouth. Everyone laughed and Goku gave Trunks some sandwiches then sat down next to Vegeta.
"So Vegeta, the boys are pretty strong aren't they."
"Hn." He nodded. "Yes they are. Amazingly so, to become super saiyajins at such a young age. Imagine if we could have accomplished that." He seemed to close his eyes and actually imagine it, as a kiss was planted on his cheek, which caused the older saiyajin to blush a little. "What was that for?"
"Just because, you get so cute when your serious." He said standing to his feet and helping Vegeta to his. "I made you some spaghetti."
"Thank you Kakarott." He said walking off to the kitchen, with Goku behind him.
Goten and Trunks greedily ate their food and started running off to play.
"Don't go to far boys" Goku yelled.
"We won't!" Trunks shouted as he hit Goten in the arm. "Tag your it!"
"Ah no fair Trunks I wasn't looking'."
"I know that's why your it, you better get me!" He flew off as fast as he could with Goten close on his tail.
"Your gonna get it!"
Vegeta grabbed a plate and put some spaghetti on it then sat down at the table. Goku across from him.
"Bulma's going to be by in about an hour to pick up the boys. I was thinking we could go out somewhere."
"Like a date!" Goku asked with a noodle hanging out of his mouth. "Can we go somewhere fun?!"
Vegeta wiped at his mate's mouth with a napkin . "Yes I was aiming for fun. Where would you like to go?" The taller saiyajin dropped his fork as his eyes lit up with delight. He ran over to Vegeta and jumped on his lap throwing his arms around him.
"You mean your going to let me pick?" Vegeta rubbed Goku's back and shifted in the seat a little to get more comfortable. Then he trailed his fingers up Goku's back to the nape of his neck so he could play with Goku's hair.
"Yes, you can pick." Goku put a finger on his lip as if he were deep in thought, then scratched the side of his head.
"I know! The store!"
Vegeta grunted away the laughter that he wanted to let escape him. "The store? As in, grocery store?"
Goku nodded. "Yeah then I can get all the food I want." He said with a laugh.
Vegeta leaned back in the chair and studied Goku's face for a moment before answering.
"Sure, if that's what you really want."
"Ugh! You actually thought I wanted to go to a store, out of all the places I can pick. I'm insulted." Goku pouted as Vegeta shrugged.
"You know, I thought you were kidding but that bottomless pit of yours does have a mind of it's own." He said reaching up and giving Goku a kiss on the lips.
"How about an Amusement Park, I love those!"
"Alright the amusement park it is, although that place has never amused me once."
Goku flicked his tongue across Vegeta's lips. "Liar! What about that time on the Ferris Wheel? Weren't you amused then?"
"Kakarott that was more like aroused…" Vegeta flicked his tongue back at Goku's lips and devoured those same treats whole with a scorching kiss. The taller saiyajin broke the lip lock and began trailing kisses and bites along Vegeta's thick neck.
"Or maybe we can just stay here." Goku whispered in the Princes ear.
Vegeta moaned and grabbed at the dark hair that was tickling his chin, running his hands through it.
"Maybe." Strong hands pushed Goku back onto the kitchen table as dark orbs devoured him whole. A skilled hand ran up Goku's thigh over a stiff erection and rested on his chest gripping his shirt in his hand then ripping it away. He pulled himself up on the table and began crawling his way up Goku very slowly, his tongue licking up his pants. Moving like a tiger, eyeing his prey, his shoulder blades rising and falling with every inch he came closer to his mates face. His tongue poured out of his mouth onto the perfect chest beneath him.
He licked circles around the sensitive nipples. Licking his way back down, over a hard abdomen. He swirled his tongue inside of Goku's belly button making him moan as he moved lower. Putting his mouth over Goku's clothed erection he blew hot breath through the fabric, licking at it.
His tongue was abruptly removed when he felt his body slide the rest of the way up Goku's to meet his face. Goku grabbed the Princes cheeks with his hand and pulled his face to his making their lips press against one another's. "I need you now." Hot breathe practically melted Vegeta's lips as a slick tongue was pressed inside of the stunned Prince.
"You do?" Goku only growled as he removed the rest of their clothes. A stiff erection slapped Vegeta in the thigh. He gently bit at Vegeta's lips.
"Yes."
"So you don't want to play?" The breath was knocked out of him as he was flipped onto his back.
"No…" Goku gave Vegeta a fierce kiss and quickly broke it to put his mouth on Vegeta's aching member. He swallowed it whole with a moan. The Prince was like poison, he could have died at the taste of him, it was that good. His fingers trailed there way to Vegeta's entrance stretching slowly and carefully making the Prince buck and moan.
"Ka ka rott!" He sucked a little faster as his mate thrusted into his mouth. Strong hands were in Goku's hair securing him in place. He gripped at the Princes hip with one hand squeezing him there. Vegeta screamed out Goku's name and released his seed in his mouth. Goku swallowed all of it happily wasting no time at removing his fingers and pressing the head of his member at his entrance. He slowly slid himself in. He still didn't want to cause his Prince any pain.
"Kakarott go!" Vegeta bucked up at him, there was no need to ask twice as he thrust inside of him deeply making them both moan out in pleasure. Goku grabbed Vegeta's legs putting them over his shoulder as he grabbed his thighs and thrusted harder and faster. The table began to rock with the force of their movements and moments later it toppled at their weight. But the two saiyajins kept going.
Vegeta moaning out Goku's name as he continued his fast pace. Goku turned his head kissing and licking at Vegeta's ankle's and feet. Making the Ouji cry out in pure ecstasy. He wrapped a hand around Vegeta's newly stiffened member and pumped it in time with his thrusts and Vegeta almost instantly released himself at the touch. Moments later Goku followed collapsing on top of his mate.
He kissed Vegeta on the ear as he rolled off of him. "I love you Vegeta."
He looked over at Goku and smiled closing his eyes as he still was breathing a little heavy.
"I love you too, and you tired me out…" He opened an eye to see Goku wetting a towel at the sink and he smiled at him as he walked back kneeling next to him cleaning him off.
"Kakarott, your beautiful." Goku smiled and kissed Vegeta on the lips as he wiped the towel across his stomach .
"So are you Vegeta." He reached for their clothes handing Vegeta his jeans and black t-shirt. Goku grabbed his pants and slipped them on. He looked at his shirt throwing it into the trash seeing that it was ripped to shreds. "You ruined another shirt." Vegeta laughed as he threw his shirt on .
"I don't mind seeing you walk around like that." Goku smiled and leaned forward giving Vegeta a kiss.
"Let's go check on the boys." They were about to do just that when loud scream interrupted them making both of there heads snap to the doorway.
They ran out of the front door to see what the commotion was about.
"What the hell!" Vegeta said as he stared at Trunks and Goten. They were transparent. Not only that it seemed like they were shrinking. Goku ran over there reaching out to grab Goten but his hand went right through them. "Goten, Trunks, what happened?"
"Daddy, I feel funny!" Goten's voice echoed shakily.
"Vegeta do something!" Bulma yelled as she tried desperately to put her arms around Trunks. He didn't even notice her there, but realized she must have been the one they heard screaming.
"How did this happen? Was it when you two were playing tag?" Vegeta questioned.
"Dad, I can't hear you. DAD!" Trunks voice to seem to fade away. Vegeta felt like he had no control, this was all happening too fast and he didn't even know why. He stared at the boys getting smaller, no younger, they were getting younger.
"I just came over to pick them up, and they looked fine, then all of a sudden..." She pointed at them. "They looked see through." Bulma covered her eyes. "Please tell me this is a saiyajin thing." Vegeta shook his head.
"No, I have never seen anything like this." Vegeta stared at everyone as he heard his sons yells and questions. He looked at Bulma who seemed to change also, her hair was growing and Goku was also fading out to. He backed up as he looked down at his hands he could see through them. Everything faded to white as he reached out for Goku but never found him.
"Kakarott!?"
His voice was lost, as his thoughts seemed to be inked out by new ones. All he could do was stand and watch as the fabric of time rethreaded itself.