Kagome sighed. Her hand resting on the cold metal doorknob leading into her bedroom. Easing the door open, she stepped inside and walked the several steps across the room towards her bed.
She sat on her bed with a sigh bent down to take off her shoes. After successfully taking of her left she began with the right. She stared at her right shoe. The faux leather was muddy and pealing away from the shoe itself. Pebbles embedded in to the soles of the shoe. She frowned. She couldn't go to school with these, people will start to wonder if she was ever sick in the first place! Kagome's frown deepened. As she realized they couldn't afford new shoes.
Dropping her shoe, she flopped onto her bed. Not bothering to take off her muddy socks, as she curled into the fetal position. Her chin touching her knees. The shikon no tama around her neck glittering in the dim light. She tucked the jewel into her blouse, as she was reminded as why she came home.
Kagome's throat burned as she choked back a sob. Her face tightening as she held back tears. Images of Kikyo and Inuyasha intertwined. Fingers tangled in each others hair. Mouths connected so intimately, it was if they where trying to give the other life through passion alone.
Kagome shuddered, clenching her eyes shut as tears streamed down her face as she tried to block the memory of stumbling across the two. Broken sobs burst free from deep inside her. Kagome's heart shattered. Broken pieces of it piercing her internal organs.
"Kikyo, Kikyo, Kikyo, it's all her fault. If she didn't…. if she didn't…." Kagome mumbled through her sobs. Her tears stopped abruptly.
"If she didn't?" Kagome wondered, not quite sure if she wanted to face the darkness in her heart. Kagome stretched her limbs, coming out of the fetal position. Wiped away her tears and glazed at the ceiling. Her hand grasping at the jewel resting on her breast.
"I…. love him too. I love him so much. It's not fair!" Kagome whispered. "And this time he's not coming for me."
She closed her eyes, Inuyasha's shocked face greeted her. Kagome opened her eyes. She never wants to see that face again. The horror in his eyes when he realized that Kagome saw the whole thing….. She shuddered. The awkward silence that followed told her everything she feared. That Inuyasha had chosen Kikyo over her. Her love wasn't accepted, and he didn't need her. Kagome did the only thing she could do. She left.
Kagome rolled the jewel between her fingers. She had one more task to do. Then she could leave it all behind. Leave Inuyasha behind. She will give back the jewel to Kikyo. After all she had it first. She had Inuyasha first too. Sango, Miroku, and Shippo won't understand why she never came back. Shippo especially. It won't matter anyway. Only Inuyasha can go through the well to come bring her back.
"After that is finally done, I can go back to school." Kagome mused. "Maybe get a boyfriend. Hojo likes me. He won't leave me for someone better."
Kagome's eyes grew heavy as the days stress hit her with full force. As sleep over took her the words 'soon it'll be all over' ran throughout her mind.