This is my first ever fan fiction. Its a rollaro story. It starts just after gamblers fallacy and will continue through the following episodes. It will be m rated in later chapters. The other characters will feature later on. Thanks enjoy.

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Amanda sat at the bar drinking her whisky, she felt the burning sensation as the liquid ran down her throat. She felt the buzz hit her and instantly felt better, she couldn't stop thinking about what declan Murphy had told her. She didn't know whether it meant anything but when she thoughts about Nick punching Murphy to protect her she got butterflies in her stomach. She took another big swig of her drink and tried to push the feelings away. Saint nick always trying to protect the women in his life that's all it was. He was always swooping in trying to save everyone the more she thought about it the more angry she got with him. They had been here before when he went undercover to an AA meeting, she didn't need him to look out for her she could look after herself. She'd had plenty practise.

She ordered another drink and downed it. Her buzz hitting her harder than before, she was now considerably tipsy and getting more pissed off as she thought about what nick had done. She had to have it out with him she was sick of his interfering in her life she didn't need his protection.

She walked out of the bar and lit a cigarette, she took a long drag and looked at her watch it was 11pm he would be home. She had so many thoughts running through her head, so many things had happened in the past few days, she had almost lost her badge and could have gone to prison because of her gambling. She had gotten lucky that Murphy had been UC, he went to bat for her, he trusted her but liv didn't, not anymore who could blame her after everything Amanda had done. Fin still had her back which made her feel better and Nick...Nick the more she thought about him the urgency to confront him intensified. She took one more long drag from her cigarette and jumped into a cab giving the driver nicks address.

As the cab stopped and she handed the driver cash she could feel her hear poumnding inher chest, her hands shaking as she climbed the stairs to his house.

"You can do this Amanda" she said to herself

She took a deep breath as she raised her hand to knock on the door, wishing she had had another whisky before leaving the took another breath trying to rid her body of some of her anxiety.

He answered after what felt like an eternityg to Amanda, this just made her more nervous. As the door opened she felt her breath leave her slightly as she noticed how attractive he looked in his jeans and T-shirt.

"Amanda hey, what you doing here, is everything alright?" He asked looking concerned as he m optioned for her to come Inside.

"Not really I need you to explain some thing to me? She said

" what do you mean, what do you need me to explain?" He replied confused

"I need you to explain why you punched Murphy in the street and told him to stay away from me! She tried not to shout her temper rising

" we've been here before nick with nate and the AA meeting, my peronallife has nothing to do with you. Who I choose to date or not date has absolutely nothing to do withyou! You need to stop this now! She exclaimed

"I'm sorry, really Amanda I am its only bcause I'm worried about you" he answered sheepishly

"I don't need you to worry about me I'm fine. Declan sorted everything at work so im fine"

"Oh declan did did he...you can do better than Murphy he growled his temper rising

" what" she shouted taking a step closer to him

"I know your sleeping with him. He doesn't deserve you" he shouted back. He clenched his fist, his temper rising more when he thought of Amanda...with him. It caused him to tremble he was that angry. He didn't want anyone but him touching her.

"How dare you. I'm not sleeping with Murphy. It even if I was its none of yoiur buisi ess. I can sleep with whoever I want.

" it is my business he replied stepping closer to nher looking right in her eye

"Why do you care so much honestly nick if I didn't know better I'd think you were jealous"

"I am jealous he San before he could stop himself " the thought of you having sex with Murphy makes me feel sick. The thought of you having sex with anyone else makes me feel...angry" he said

Amanda took a step back trying to keep her breathing under control. Her mind was racing with thoughts of everything that he had saix . she thought of all the times they argued,all the flirtatious back and forth between them. All the unspoken looks and lingered touches.

"I...Nick... Stop" she said raising her hand up

" Amanda just let me finish please" he said rushing towards her grabbing g her shoulders. She couldn't think straight having him this close to her. She could smell his aftershave. He smelt amazing which didn't help as she tried to concentrate on what he was saying.

" I care about you so much. I worry about you, when you turn up to late to work obviously hungover, I worry, when I see you with guys like Nate or Murphy I worry. I worry because I care. When I see you at work it takes all I have not to rush over and kiss you, run my hands through your sexy blonde hair,look into those beautiful blue I eye's. I want you so much Amanda... I need you" he finished looking deep into her eyes trying to gaze her reaction.

Amanda didn't know what to say. Her mind raced, there was no air in the room. She looked at nicks face. He was looking at her so intensely. He looked so hot she wanted himtoo. In that moment all her anger left her body And was replaced with an overwhelming desire for him. She reached up and grabbed him in a passionate kiss,sliding her tongue in his mouth as her arms wrapped round his neck...

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