A/N: hi everyone. This is my very first fanfic so please don't be too hard on me. So here it goes…
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the flock or characters from Maximum Ride but most of the plot id mine as well as any new characters.
I walked through the door and into the living room. I was just so tired after the deadly maze game they had put me through tonight. Little did I know things were about to get much, much worse. Every member of the flock was there waiting for me, even though it was three o clock in the morning. This was more than unusual. This was just plain scary. Then the worst possible thing that could have happened ever, the most unthinkable thing ever happened. Fang said "max, we want you to leave. And never come back. You're a liar and a traitor and we never should have trusted you." It was as if I had been physically punched in the stomach. All the wind was knocked out of me. No this isn't happening. It's all just a dream. I reassured myself mentally. But then I saw the undiluted hatred in each and every member of my flock's eyes. They were deadly serious. And they wanted me gone. "Love you." I whispered. And with that I ran.
I woke with a start breathing heavily and drenched in sweat. That was the first time id had that dream in a year now. And I was definitely not happy id had it just now. Like I needed to be reminded the people I was going through hell to save hated me. I sometime wished that the white coats would just kill me. That way I wouldn't be responsible for the ex-flocks lives and could just get on with death instead. But no. they weren't that kind. Instead every day of my short and terrible life I would be put through pain and suffering to keep them alive. But even though they betrayed me I couldn't let them die. I dint hate anyone enough to guarantee their deaths. And this was the price I had to pay to keep them alive. In the first few days I considered ditching the program id started a few weeks earlier that would guarantee their lives would be safe and none would die. But soon realised I wasn't that cold hearted and would continue the torture for them. I was told today they had a 'special' task for me. They were probably going to give me new powers. I'd already gotten elemental control, telepathy and telekinesis, what else could they give me? Or maybe it would be some extra special maze with more erasers and electric shocks, but no, nothing that kind. They were going to make me terminate the 'less than perfects' or the experiments that had gone wrong. And I had to for my ex- family's lives. So I would be turned into their personal terminator. And there was nothing I could do about it.
2 years later (4 years after getting kicked out of the flock)
I didn't bother to wipe the blood off my face. I'd just get more on it soon. Why was I still alive? I didn't want to live. Why wouldn't they just kill me already? Oh well who cares about me anymore? Oh yeah, no one. I dug my knife like nails into the flesh on my wrists. Yes, pain is good. I deserve pain. No I need more of it. I deserve more. I'm a monster. I sunk my enhanced mails into either side of my chest and pulled out wards. I smiled at the pain. Ha, who knows it might actually kill me. Unfortunately a white coat noticed. "Stop her! She'll rip her heart out!" the female white coat shrieked. At this point I burst into hysterical laughter. Everybody probably thought I was mad. They were probably right. But right now I didn't care. What was hilarious was that the white coat though I still had a heart. Ha, as if. That got destroyed when the fl- no bad Max. Don't think of them again. Never ever again. Never ever again. I had stopped laughing and now proceeded to hit my head against the nearest wall full force. Good, I might get brain damage. Then I might forget about the screams and finally get some sleep for the first time in two years. No, death would be better. Nothing to do. Nothing to remember. No one waiting. Why. Bang. Cant. Bang. They. Bang, bang. Just kill me. Bang. Already. Bang, bang, bang, bang. I thought hitting my head between words, focusing only on the pain. No more murder. No more waiting. Death. Finality. Then nothings my fault anymore. I won't be responsible for their lives. I won't have to destroy anymore. I can see darkness creeping across my vision. Good bye now everyone…
A/N: so there you go chapter 1 finished. Thank you for reading. Reviews greatly appreciated.
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