This is my new FANFIC!! I have another on this site but I don't think it's very good so I might discontinue it 

But I had travel over my spring break and I had a lot of spear time so I started this fanfic.

Every chapter will be based on a song. I DO NOT OWN THESE SONGS, ARTISTS, LYRICS OR GOSSIP GIRL!!

Please read, review, and rate!!!

CHAPTER #1

SONG: Saving Abel-18 Days

Its been 18 days
Since I'd look at myself
I don't wanna have to change
If I don't then no one will
Is it my state of mind
Or is it just everything else
I don't wanna have to be here
I don't understand it now

Chuck looked at the radio.

He rolled his eyes, it seemed like every song on the radio reminded him, of everything.

It's hard to forget when everything else around you makes you remember.

Cause its been 18 days
Since I first held you
But to me it feels just like
It feels like a lifetime
I'm trying hard to re-arrange
Some say its the hardest thing to do
But that's another 18 days
Without you..

Blair looked at the radio in the hall.

"Of course." She muttered.

Her phone rang almost on cue.

"DID YOU FIND HIM?" Blair demanded into the phone.

"Well don't call me Jack until you do FIND him." Blair screamed.

She threw the phone at the wall, and watched it shatter.

Dorotta came running.

"Miss Blair, what happened??"

"Clean it up and get me a new phone." Blair demanded, wiping her cheeks, and running up the stairs.

Time after time
I've been through this
You show me what it means to live
You give me hope when I was hopeless
As my days fade to night
I remember that state of mind
I'm soaring straight into your heart
And I'll fly high

Serena swung her hips to the music.

She could feel the beat in her heart it made her feel free.

She refused to listen to the lyrics, knowing they would ruin, this freedom.

Even though she knew she would never be free, with Bart following her every step and pretending to be her father.

She wondered how Chuck could deal with this.

He had Nate, though to bring him back down.

Blair had been AWOL since her and Chuck's fight, and Chuck had been missing since the accident.

Nate.

I missed him.

Cause it's been 18 days
Since I first held you
But to me it feels just like
It feels like a lifetime
I'm trying hard to re-arrange
Some say it's the hardest thing to do
But that's just too many days
Without you

Nathaniel watched the hands on the clock move.

"So, what do you think Nate? Are we going to do this?" Vanessa asked.

Nathaniel turned his head, from the clock to his Girlfriend.

"Sorry, what?" Nathaniel asked.

"NATE! Did you listen to anything I just said??" Vanessa demanded.

"No, I'm sorry. Just with Chuck missing, Blair completely losing it and Serena going back to her old ways, I can't really concentrate on much." Nate said shaking his head to the present.

"We are talking about our future Nate! What are we going to do?" Vanessa screamed at him.

"Vanessa, how cares about the future?! My friends are all in pain! My Best friend is missing! My other friends are fighting for their lives! Serena is going down her old path, and is losing grip on herself fast. Blair hasn't seen the outside light in weeks, and I think she might be falling back into her own habits. I can't think about the future, I can't even think straight!" Nathaniel screamed getting up and turning his back on Vanessa.

"It's our future though Nate, we have to have some plan!" Vanessa yelled back, and standing in front of Nathaniel.

"I'm not even sure if WE have a future." Nathaniel spat at Vanessa.

"Well, we obviously don't!" Vanessa grabbed her coat and ran out the door.

I don't need anyone, not even Serena.

And I know what they say
About all good things
Will they come to an end
But I'll fight this time
So that we might
Have a chance at this

Serena let the man on top of her take over.

Let him take charge; let him fill the holes in her heart, that was until it was over. Then the holes were just bigger.

Serena felt the stranger; fall on the bed beside her.

"You are beautiful." He says in his best sexy voice.
"And you are a pathetic man. That was the worst I've ever had. Get lost you Son ava Bitch." Serena demanded.

"Slut." The man spat back.

He got dressed and left the hotel room.

Serena let the music fill her thoughts, until it brought her back to him.

Cause it's been 18 days
Since I'd look at myself
I don't wanna have to change
If I don't then no one will

Blair looked at herself in the mirror.

Her eyes were blood shot and her face scarred with pain.

"I Don't Love you." The words came back into her ears, back into her mind.

She turned away from the ugly reflection in the mirror ran to her bathroom.

She felt her knees give out, and reached to grab on to the counter, until she fell down in front of toilet, she finally let go of him.

Cause its been too many days
Since I first held you
But to me it feels just like
It feel like a lifetime
I'm trying hard to re-arrange
Some say it's the hardest thing to do
But that's just too many days without you

Chuck let the bottle rest at his lips, before taking a long drink.

He let the whiskey burn his throat.

Eric used to like Whiskey. Chuck thought.

Eric's face, flashed before him. His screaming voice filled his ears. He could see the fear still in his eyes.

Chuck shook his head, trying to forget him, his little brother, forever.

And I know what they say
About all good things
Will they come to an end
But I'll fight this time
So that we might
Have a chance at this..