A/T: Please don't hate me. I just had this idea stuck in my head and had to release it.

I don't own the character!

Enjoy!

When Deeks woke up that morning he surely didn't expect the day to take this curious turn. Kensi and Talia sitting in the same room? Fate was playing some weird games on him that he clearly didn't appreciate.

Should he tell Kensi the truth?

No! That would not only break her heart but it would also mean the end of their already dysfunctional relationship. Wait, not relationship. Partnership. After all, he was the one who chose to end it before it even started.

From the moment Talia made her appearance at the crime scene, he feared the words that would slip her mouth. That woman was too honest and too damn unpredictable.

But most of all, he feared Kensi's reaction. He felt extremely lucky he got away with only a few shoulder punches after their first encounter. But if Kensi knew the whole truth, he would probably be in a hospital right now.

Thankfully, apart from that offensive Barbie comment – he was almost certain Kensi was restraining herself from hitting Talia at that point – Talia surprisingly managed to keep her mouth shut. But then, she just had to go on and mention how he carried her to the bathroom back then.

Why did she even do that? Why did she torture him like that? She knew all about the Kensi situation and the complications they were facing. She knew how much he loved her, so why torment him?

Finally, Kensi walked into the bullpen bathroom but before he had the chance to address to Talia he received another punch on the shoulder and he growled in pain.

"That's for not telling me how beautiful she is," she whispered in frustration "it all makes sense now. I get it. Your partner is smoking hot and you are very clearly madly in love with her."

"Will you keep your voice down," Deeks tried to silence her but in vain.

"No wonder why you liked me. I am a brunette like her, tough, bossy…Please don't tell me you were thinking of her when you were having sex with me."

"Will you stop it!" Deeks walked towards the bathroom to make sure Kensi wasn't coming out.

"That night was a mistake, ok? I was depressed, we both had a little too much to drink, you were a bit too available and….it should have never happened. "

"Wasn't I….memorable?" Talia approached him and trailed her finger from his lips down to his chest, her mouth only a breath away from his.

Deeks swallowed hard and moved away from her reach before her lips captured his. "That's enough," he growled "If Kensi finds out, it will devastate her and I will lose all the trust that I worked so hard to gain."

"You are a hypocrite, you know that?" Talia accused him raising her voice "If you really cared about her you wouldn't have ended in bed with the first woman that threw herself to you. Fine, perhaps I was a bit too available, but you not were not that far behind and surely not that drunk."

Deeks grabbed her arm and whispered in anger "You want to tell her? Fine, go ahead and tell her. Is that what you want to do? Spread misery because you chose not to be happy?"

Talia looked at him straight into those deep blue eyes "I don't spread misery. I spread honesty. I am not fighting for you, you arrogant narcissistic asshole. I am fighting to make Kensi open her eyes and see right through you! First chance you got, you betrayed her. You don't deserve her and you will only break her heart. You know you will."

"I am not you!" he released her from his grip "Just because you chose your job over the man you loved, it doesn't mean that I will do the same thing."

"Then, now that she is back, are you two finally…together together?" she smirked wickedly .

Deeks remained silent. Was Talia right after all? No! He didn't choose work over love. He chose safety. The only reason he was willing to let Kensi go, was because he didn't want to risk another reassignment. Hetty made it perfectly clear that she didn't approve their relationship. Perhaps she routed for them at first, but after seeing how they let their personal feelings interfere with their jobs she acknowledged her mistake.

No! Kensi was not a mistake. She was the best choice he had ever made in his entire life. She was the reason he woke up every morning and his last thought every night. She was the light in his life. She challenged him every time he wanted to give up and made him want to be a better man. He wanted to be her man!

When you want something, you find a way; not excuses. He was done with excuses. During all this time he let his fears consume him and cloud his judgment. But now, everything was clear. Yes, Talia was right about one thing. He was madly in love with that woman and he was not ready to lose her.

"I've made some terrible mistakes during these past few months and I am ready to pay for them," Deeks sat on the edge of the table "If you want to tell her the truth, you are free to do so."

Talia looked at him surprised by his utter serenity. "Are you pulling a poker face on me?" she tried to read his mind.

"No," he shook his head "I am being perfectly honest with you. If you don't tell her, I will. I am done lying to her. I am done making excuses. I honestly don't know why I gave in and spent that night with you. But I know it was a huge mistake, and deep down you know it too. Yes, I love her, I really do, and I will do everything within my power to win back her love."

"I think you already have her love so, don't screw it up detective." Talia smirked and punched him once again on the shoulder.

"She doesn't need to know," she continued "but don't ever make the same mistake again. She doesn't deserve that."

"I won't," Deeks sighed .

"Why don't you tell me why you guys burned down Michael Wilson's house?"