She looks over at me, or is she looking at Emily. I hope that she's looking at me because it's useless for Naomi to look over at Ems because Ems doesn't love her, doesn't want her, doesn't want to kiss her, hold her, wake up with her, Ems doesn't want anything that I do.
When Naomi kissed Ems back in middle school, it was one of the biggest mistakes that Naomi ever made, it's not like she had friends to lose but the incident just got her beat up twice as much and a really bad reputation, no one even wanted to sit near or stand near her anymore, like she was some dirty contaminated lepar, when all she was, was a gentle girl who happened to like other girls. Ems pushed her off and punched her in the face and since then everything has been difficult, I was never allowed to talk to Naomi unless Ems wasn't there but that was a very, very rare happening, so very rare that it happened once every blue moon or something like that.
I found it really strange that everyone hated Naomi for being a lesbian whereas my sister was loved and adored by everyone, even the girls, they all loved her and carried on as they were, all close and touchy and that sort of stuff and she was a lesbian so what it was about Naomi, I did not know at all. There was nothing special about my sister that suggested that anyone gave her special treatment, I always thought that she deserved worse than what Naomi got or that Naomi shouldn't have got any shit off anyone at all, but they're just my thoughts and my voice, thoughts and opinions always go unnoticed. It's the way that it is. At college, Ems is the popular and loud one that everyone wants to be or be with and I'm just the twin that is in the shadows and that makes her look good because she's in control over someone. That's right, I'm a doormat, it's actually really tragic as well, by being a doormat, I actually show Naomi how weak I am and that's it! Everything that I say or do always reverts back to that blonde angel in some way. DAMN!
Anyway, you might have or you might've not noticed that I'm in love with a certain blonde girl called Naomi Campbell and I am also very jealous that my sister got to at least touch those lips, even if it was only for a thousandth of a second, she still managed to when all I've ever had is a hug and a smile. Naomi has liked our Ems for ages now and since the middle school situation happened, it's obvious by the way that she looks at her, that she's fallen even more in love with her or she's even most definately actually in love with her now. I'm not sure, but I'm damn jealous and that's all I can really say about the matter. I realise that I've been staring at her for the past ten minutes at the least, oh god, what if she'd turned around at some point and noticed me staring? She doesn't know that I feel anything for her, well at least, I don't think that she does, I look to the table next to me where Emily and Effy are sitting. They were sitting behind the blonde so this means I could just catch myself looking that way instead now and making it much less obvious. Effy had her arm around Emily's waist as Ems rested her head on Effy's shoulder, yeah that's right. Emily was dating Effy, the one and only Effy Stonem, sister of the legendary Tony Stonem, They'd been dating for a year or something like that now and they only met about a year ago as well, they had this instant attraction thing going on. It's cute in a way but no one should have to hear their sister screaming in pleasure or have to hear her girlfriend moaning her name and no one, especially me should have to sleep in the same room, in the bed across from the bed that they had sex in. It's actually rather disgusting. It makes me want to be sick.
"You have to stand up and say one fact about yourself, so I'll start." Kieron told us simply. "I'm Kieron and I hate being a fucking teacher."
"I'm Emily. I love the girl next to me." She said with the biggest grin on her face.
"Great, I'm fucking happy for you." Kieron sarcastically replied.
"I'm Katie. I'm without...." I said sadly as I took one glance at Naomi and sat down.
"Oh well. Shit happens" Another sarcastic reply.
"I'm Naomi. I hate injustice and I'm unpredictable."
"I'm Effy. I'm hers and I also think my mum is having an affair." The rest of the form went after us all; fun, like I'm ever going to talk to any of these people so why do I want to know pointless facts about them all. The only people that I'll ever talk to are Emily and Effy at this rate, I'm not very good for making my own friends, I rely on my sister for that because no one really likes me for who I am, I'm too shy and quiet and I need to be like every one else to have friends, I've tried, but I can't be loud and I can't not give a damn about anything. I worry too much and I can't really stand up for myself, I've done it once or twice but it never worked out that well. I turn around and look at Naomi, suprise suprise, she's not looking at Emily.
She's looking at me.