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Jasper knew. I was so sure.
How could he not feel the raging emotions that crashed through me when she was around?
Every time she enters a room I can't help but feel elation, hope, desperation and most of all desire. How could my brother not feel these feelings as if they were not his own. Not feel the war that is going on inside of me?
Jasper knew. Every time she wanders into our house with him. Sharing a joke, that even though, I can see inside their heads seems hollow because I wasn't included in making her laugh and happy. I wasn't a part of her obvious elation. Every time she takes his hand instead of mine, in such ease that it looks nothing short of natural, my dead heart breaks.
I am at war again with the true alpha. Yet this time it seems destined that I lose. It must be written in the stars that we were never to get along.
I know that what he feels for my daughter is now innocent and the only feelings he has for her are strictly platonic ones. Am I such a horrible father that I wish that he would just fall in love with her just to take my worries away? To take him away from the woman I love? I sometimes surprise myself with how selfish my own thought are. For someone who has forever had to listen to the nefarious and selfish thoughts of others one would think I'd have learned. Yet here I am, wishing that my own daughter will capture the heart of the competition. I feel disgusted wiht my self, but whats new?
Yes, Jasper knew that I was in love with Leah Clearwater.