Loving someone is really a great challenge. But the real challenge here is how long will it last, how committed and true you are to each other. Sometimes you will take a risk and hurt your friends as well. But behind this all you will see in the end if you really deserve each other. You can realize how you can handle all the challenges in life. Even when your down, you still stand up and say "I can do this" and trust in yourself that you can do it.
Once I was facing life like a pain in the neck. Family problems have been on the first of the line in my list. In fact, I even wonder if they really are my family. They keep on hurting me like everyday of my life I keep on crying on a corner of my bedroom wishing that I would die. I don't feel love in this family. I'd rather die than living in this world without love. After the greatest guy in my life die when I was five, which is my father, everything change. Our business was still up but something is not right. Where is our income? Later we found out that my mother had an affair with this guy, specifically he's one of my dad's business partner. What a bastard both of them are. In fact my father trusted them so much. I hate them and worst, they're getting married by the next month. I hate attending but it's the least I can do. As long as they won't let the business that my dad had work hard on down, it's fine for me. But still they're bastards.
Me and my brother had live together facing everyday of our lives together with that bastard after he married our mom, and with their son or as what I call him behind his back, another bastard. Of course we didn't change our last name to his. I'm going to treasure everything what my father has left us. And later in the end, me and my brother will surely handle my father's business. I know I can do this with my brother and father up there watching me. But I lost faith when my brother died in an accident when I was ten. It's all their fault why he died, they let him go to New York to meet up with the mayor while they are freshly on a vacation, sitting under the sun drinking beers in Hawaii. That ends my brothers life, the plane crashed and worst we haven't even found his body yet and they don't even care a bit. But deep inside I know he's still alive, and he was just somewhat lost out there. And because of all this, I closed my heart. I haven't got any emotions on my face, the only person I trust is my best friend. I still talk to my mother and those bastards but I hate bondings with them. I don't smile, I frequently talk, the old joyful me is gone. Once I was the nice girl who smile to every person I met on the road while my father was holding my hands and I know that I was protected.
If I could have the chance to turn back time, I wouldn't have open the door in my fathers office. It all started with that loud "BANG" in my father's office where I was staring blankly at him looking into his body with an oozing red fluid. First I thought it was not real for I always see it on movies. But when people started screaming around and panicked, I've realized it's not a joke anymore. And the red fluid blood was his.....blood. A five year old little girl in front of a murder, witnessing the crime caused by trauma into my mind. But luckily I never had one. It's too painful recalling those memories with my father. When we went to different places, buys me what I wanted and during his business conference in other country, he would never forget to buy me something special. Like all the things in my room was given by him. As he arrived home he hugs me tight and give me those sweet kisses and cuddle me, he makes me smile and I can really feel his longing love, but it was all in the past, and it would never come back.
Now I'm fifteen, facing all these years with pain, putting all my hate towards those bastards makes me feel lonely, no one loved me. Only my best friend. I miss my brother so much, I miss my father. I miss them both, the two special guy in my whole life, gone in just thin air.
I continued all my studies and been one of the top students in school. I join contests, I played the flute, violin and piano, I sing, I dance, I write for the school paper and now the editor-in-chief, all this I dedicate to my father and brother. I know, I am now a successor, I can get the company, I can handle it on my own now. But my knowledge is still not enough, I still need to learn. All this just for the sake of my father's hard work, i'm not going to let those bastards take over the company.
As I accommodate my mind in all those hard works, I never thought of my own happiness. But this changed when I stumble into this guy. He gave meaning in my life. There I was, an empty piece of shell. Just minding my own world, without even knowing what love and life where all about. And there he came and brought me out of my shell. He brought the whole world to me and before I knew it I was in love with him. He gave a reason for my being and gave a meaning to my life. It all began when I met him. He change my life for a moment. And this moment on I.......SMILED. I never thought that love would be this strong. And my story started here.....
I'm Mikan Sakura, 15-years of age and a top student in Alice Academy. I'm going to show you the real meaning of my life, with him of course. How I struggle in this life with all those painful past keeping on flashback in my head. Once a joyful little girl, a melancholy gal, then a girl with a big change in life. I never thought that I can be like this in the end. Who's the guy? You will soon fin out in the up coming chapters......i know you'll going to cry, smile, and whatever feelings you will have...enjoy :]