Summary: All Human. Buffy and Spike are getting married, but when Spike don't come home from the sea, the wedding can't go through. Sorry crappy summary, but the story is going to be good… I hope.

Disclaimer: I don't own a thing, everything belongs to Joss Whedon and his super fantastic brain.

Chapter 1

"Okay, promise me. No strippers, be careful and no strippers, okay?" Buffy said for the third time.

"I promise, love. I can't believe we are getting married tomorrow, I can't wait for you to me my wife." Spike said and kissed her.

"I can't wait for you to be my husband either, I love you." She hugged him for a long time.

In hug Spike answered, "I love you more..."

"Impossible," she said back still in hug.

He pulled out from the hug and gave her a long kiss, "I love you more for every day passing. I love you so much, you know that right?" He asked already knowing the answer.

"I do know that, William. I love you too." She reached up for another kiss, before Xander interrupted them.

"Aw, you guys. It's only one day, then you can do each other as much as you like."

Buffy kissed Spike one more time before he sat in the car; she waved until she couldn't see them anymore. She sighed,what the hell am I going to do now?

***

Buffy just couldn't shake of that feeling that was telling her something was wrong. She tried to concentrate on the TV but it was useless and nothing was worth watching anyway. She looked at the clock, 23.35. They said they were going to be home at 22.30.

Wesley, Gunn, Lorne, Oz and Xander was going on a boat trip as a bachelor party for Spike, the wedding was tomorrow.

A knock at the door, "Come in!" She yelled and in came all but Spike, "Where's William?" She asked worried.

"Buffy, you may have to sit down." Xander said.

And that she did, "What's going on?" She asked getting more worried, more worried about what might have happened to her William.

"On the boat trip, it was an accident. Spike fell over board; we tried to catch him… But it was useless, we looked all over for him but we didn't find him anywhere. Buffy, Spike is most possibly dead." Xander said starting to cry.

Buffy froze, her eyes full of tears, "No, no, no. You are pulling a sick joke, any minute now William will go through the door. You are just joking, he is alive! Please tell me he is alive!" She cried and Xander held her in his arms.

"I wish I could tell we were only joking, but we are not." He tried to calm her down but it was hard because he was sad too.

"But you didn't find his body! He could still be alive!" She cried.

"Yes, he could. But it was dangerous water Buffy, it is a very small chance he is alive." He said.

They hugged for a while and in the back Wesley, Gunn, Lorne even Oz was crying.

***

The funeral was harsh, she was supposed to hold a speak in honour of William but she broke down not able to say a word. They couldn't bury his body because they hadn't found it yet, but still seeing the tomb with his name on and the coffin that he was supposed to lie in made her cry so much she couldn't see.

Outside the minister held a speak, "We comment to almighty God, our brother, William Pratt and we commit his body to the ground. Earth to Earth, ashes to ashes and dust to dust. The Lord bless him and keep her. The Lord makes his face to shine upon him and be gracious to him The Lord lift up his countenance upon him, and give him peace.

Buffy couldn't stop crying, looking down on the now covered with dirt coffin, her fiancé was dead! She was supposed to marry him a week ago but she couldn't because he was gone, he was dead.

Everyone had started leaving; she stood there and looked down on newly touched earth.

4 hours passed and she was still there, on her knees touching the dirt.

"I don't know if you can hear me, but I am going to talk anyway. I don't know how to go on with my life without you William. You were supposed to be my husband at this time, but instead you are gone, out of my life so fast I couldn't even see it. I love you with all my heart and I miss you so much, I don't know how to go through with my life, my heart aches and wish I would convince you not to go on that stupid boat trip! I wish you were here with me, supporting me, loving me, holding me. Every time I close my eyes I see your face, every time I wake up you are on my mind. Some part of me are saying you aren't dead but that is probably just the hopeful part, right? I wish we could have our chance, had our happily and ever after. I wish I could do something to bring you back, anything! I love you, and I hope this is just a dream and I'll wake up soon. Why can't I wake up? Why? WHY?! Why you…?"

A/N: The minister talk was from the episode 'Forever' when Joyce gets buried, I switched the her with him. Hope it didn't get to sad, I started crying just writing it so. There will be other chapters, I have a plan all planned out, so please review, tell me what you think tell me if you like it or don't like it just be honest. ;)